Let the sun shine bright

Oh so nice to see u Mr. Sun......I swear Mother Nature may be getting a swift kick in the ars...lol lol I wish I could do it..LOL no I would sit and reason with the old gal and be like come on....give us a break...LOL LOL I only wish,
I do have a new attitude towards the days that are gray or crappy in my mind. I may not be able to control the weather but I cna control how the weather affects me. In using that skill I act better and live better through it. I still have every right to HATE the weather when it is not up to my par...lol but I will indeed continue to be the one who CHOOSES to live my life to the fullest and not let it get to me. SO blah to you weather...and yay to me!

~food~

We need food like fuel to function. I have realized that I reestablished this house not just me. Here WE NOW NEVER eat out of boardem. Even though the boys were never heavey I so know at times they ate stuff just to eat something and not b/c they were hungry. I so see a change in Ryan th emost but also in Stephen too. He is a tall buff kid and does indeed need a lot of calories to sustain his height and muscle mass don't get me wrong but in the past months I have seen the both of them including Michael eat so much less. I guess when good food is there for the taking better choices are made. I just needed to put out there that the change was not only for mine but the entire houses. I feel wonderful that I could be the one to incorporate such a great thing for them. Eat to live don't live to eat!

TODAY Show

While getting dressed this morn I saw a segment on the TODAY Show how siblings, long lost reunited with eachother. Some did not even know of eachother. It makes me ponder while I go about my days of all these 38 years what MY Siblings are doing day to day. My boilogical DNA of the male side met with me for about 15 mins of my life formally and that went to crap fast since I was basiclly asked the question "what would it take (money, how much) to make you stay quiet so you don't "hurt" my kids" Well aint that special....I guess YOUR KIDS feelings were much more importnat than my feelings are and money may keep me shut. WELL I was never THAT person. It is funny when I talk to Michael about it then and now I saw in a funny ironic way ...SHOULD OF JUST TOOK A STACK O CASH and kicked it to em....Well like I said never was that person. Don;t think CASH will pay me off. I would rather be poor in a guttah than take mercy money to be paid off to MAKE IT GO AWAY! I MADE something of me money free of it being handed to me and I AM PROUD as all HELL of the person I AM TODAY! I do however think it to be wrong and a disadvantage that there are two humans out there that may/may not know of me and I of them. I know of them they exsist but know not much about them. Seeing the segmnt. on the show made emotions/feelings/questions pop up about these 2 said people. I live well and go about my days without knowing but it would be nice to know. It could/could not add a differnt dinamic to me. So life goes on with or wothout you....cleshe t osay the least.

wanna wear this dress again

I LOVE LOVE LOVED wearing this dress...luved how I felt and looked...Well Stephens Confirmation is coming in early Oct. and I want to wear this but seems not fall enough. I have another really nice dress that we got for the wedding b/c it was so reasonable. Michael LOVEd that one so I may wear that to the Confirmation. Also I am the Godmohter/Sponcer to a gal I babysat years back. Was honored that she thinks that highly of me to be her sponser and also thinks that my faith helps with making her decision. A dark brown with beads is th eother dress and calf lenght so I think it will be more fall like. I will also have a scarf/see through shall off white to wear since it is OCT. So the other thing is sandles, the shoes we got were so awesome and can I really pull of the dress sandl. in Oct. We will c...Stacy!! Clinton....help

Memory Walk

It was great to see the support out there today for this aweful disease. It was a walk in the rain but no worries a lil rain won't hurt anyone. Micheals Nana Martha had it and now Nana T has progressed with it and I hold this cause near and dear to my heart. I like the saying find the cause, find the cure. Really it is an obscure disease that attacks the brain in a way that it is like being in another time and place. I hope that the future holds answers and this is why we walk and raise money with awareness. New Hampshire was THE PLACE to be to really see and honor those who live with it and the families who have to see their loved ones suffer. Please keep in your hearts and prayers the loved ones...Luv u more than u will know my awesome Nana T.

I have a son with a license

YES .....Stephen got his MA LI.....Nuts to think my lil baby....the 6'2" tall lil baby has his legal document that states he can drive ALONE! OMG....the time just flies. I know he is smart one and is diligent when it comes to rules so I have no doubt in him on the road. I worry about the other nit wits out there who drive. So to my first born son...Godspeed and be safe. xoxoxxo

ZUMBA

Lookin forward to ZUMBA tonight. They say this awesome workout burns up to 600cals an hour...thats a burn...luv to dance and I can't sit still so I am sure I am gonna like this. We will see.....

Hockey starts TODAY!

Hockey time again...get ut the jacket b/c I'm goin to a rink

I'm dreaming of another get a way with you.....

So our NYC/LI trip was awesome back in Aug. and we so keep saying can;t wait to go away with each other again. We have the perfect opportunity, NY again...not the city...Buffalo....I will be walking the Obesity Awareness Walk in October in NY and we are making a weekend alone of it. Michael will also be walking. There is a Boston one but that same weekend I have the Leannes Dream Walk and will be walking that one with MIL in memory of Leanne for her charity. I HAVE to walk the Obesity one to be apart and raise awareness of better health through eating better and exercising the body, mind and spirit. I started my journey to better health on April 29, 08 and will always continue to stay on track and make the best health choices I can for better health. I am passionate about this and will drive 3 hours to participate in something I care deeply about. I did this for health reasons and not vanity and want it known that others can get on a more healthy track for living and moving to the level of movement that a person is at at the weight they are at. Little by little more movement comes with less weight to carry around. I am down 175 lbs and may loose 10 more. My programs nutritionist, doctor and myself are working on seeing how my body adjusts to the weight it is now at...To them I AM AT GOAL! I remember when I had sooo much to loose and now it is like I am THERE> It is what I do with it that matters. I am toning and that may lead to more lbs of muscle mass and I am fine with that, it is not about the number on the scale but about how healthy I feel and the ability to move and be active. If my last ten comes off great. If they never come off so be it b/c I know that my body has never seen what it is at now in at least 27 years. So back to our get away. So lookin forward to another fun filled time with just me and my luv. I swear it feels like we are newlyweds still. To be luved is devine. He stood by me through thick and thin...literaly. lol and I feel great to have that special bond with my best friend/lover/husband who I can share these times with and grow old together as we watch our offspring go into pre adulthood. It is sooo nice having US time. xoxoxoxo

Day by Day....

Ok so who ever invented these things are great, luv that I can write every activity to know what is up for that day BUT ....big BUT comin' EVERYDAY is filled and now it looks messey to me LOL LOL Not just messey but really BUSY...so here goes the start of yet another school year. Activities, work, events ect...busy busy bee...I do luv those summer days when the kids are around...I do .......why would'nt I...have awesome kids and luv being with them when we have time off together b/c I am not saying that summer had nothin goin on ...it sure did. BUT my my my the next 4 months are booked solid!

take 7 and a half mins of your day to hear this awesome mans story! PLEASE! you will see what a wonderful man he is! He is my hero

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g4ZyBzdTi3Q

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x3WukRQ45aY&feature=related watch this one to truly be touched at the end of our walk, Peter has the brim hat on
A WORLD WITHOUT BREAST CANCER

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lP-HU4ACHvI&feature=related fun was had by all

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oc7Ctkasx6k&feature=related

Failure to plan is planning to fail...wise words of the head nurse of the Heart & Wellness Program that also went through the program 6 years ago. She said she could not be a hypocrite being a cardio nurse and telling people to loose weight when she herself had to loose weight. That moto is how I live many aspects of my life.

Water Country...had some fun!

Luv this place......
We have not missed a year since we started dating in 1990. We went to out first official alone date there. I was happy to go on all the slides and fit more than ampally. Luved being with the nephews b/c it is like having lil ones again. Uncle Michael is so fun throwing them over and over just like when our guys were that age. Then Auntie is known to make them swim like dolphines and spin them around until we fall in the water and splash. That places does not seem as big at is was. It used to be a chore to walk from one end of the park to the next but NOT THIS TIME! My walkin legs took me back and forth many times without fail and I am still so excited to feel like I FIT! I took a double tak eof myself when I went in the restroom passing the mirror. I was like wow thats IS me. You still see yourself as you once were and it does take a bit of time to adjust and really believe what others see. It is still a work in progress. The journey continues...it goes on and on and never ends...

music and the bike

Yesterday at the gym after walking with Paula I did 5 miles on the bike! Before I never had th enotion that music makes u "kick it up" but hell yeah it does! I went the 5 miles in about 3 mins less than I do without the music. Every time the refrain came on and it was a kicker of a song I blasted. At Heart and Wellness they always wanted us to do "bump ups" to trick the body. Well bump ups were all over that yesterday. Down 1.5 lbs from the other day. I am being naughty and weighin in everyday since the 3 day. I was good an dlistened to H & W and only would weigh in once every other week. Well I have broken that rule..GASP! Stephie a rule breaker LOL
I was up a lb but I am sure b/c of the gosh aweful periods that I still have to have UGH, why can't we turn off a switch when we are done with the need of that? So I did not get frustrated I know weight goes up and down with weather and fluid. But is was really nice to see the 1.5 lbs loss. I vow to stop going on the scale when we leave for The Hamptons on Thurday morn. Unless I pack the scale...LOL LOL ....That would be funny. So the reason for the post!!!! I did see the kick up of music while pushin the legs to the limit yesterday...I did weights after and a long stretch at the gym ..picked Stephen up from work then while watching Big Brother and txting about it while watching I could not sit still on the sofa so I was doing ab work while it was on......It is good in a way to not sit still RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT IS!

3 Day

I am changed b/c of of this......

half of who you were----50% OFF!

I am officially 50% off.....Funny way to put it....50% less of me. I lost 50% of my body weight. So I was 2 people when you think of it. I want to be 65% gone by the appointment I have late October with the Program. Please do not take that as greed. I am very happy at where I am and will maintain and loose the other 15% or so slow and steadly. It is like a half off sale..lol Later I will post 3 day pics and stories....till then I have to take the 50% less of me to the showers...xoxoxo Have a bearific day!

Upcoming walks, need a bucket o cash!

9-12 9-26 10-4 10-18
These are the next four walks I will be apart of coming this fall. The one for Nana T and the others who suffer from Alzheimer's really touched my heart when I saw the ad. The Light the Night walk one has been done by Michael, myself and the boys in the past at Lake Q in Wakefield. Also the Strides Walk in the past too. Last year I could not do the walk but the 2 gals from my church came by to see me and took a swish balloon to me with flowers when then were on their way to the walk. That was so sweet. I was sad that I could not do it since we have all done that walk together the past 5 years. Well this year I am there.As for the walk for obesity, A gal and I from the Health and Wellness program tried to organize a Salem Ma walk for NSMC but this year it will not happen, too much red tape, I will do it in Lowell. If only a nice leprechaun at the end of the rainbow could leave me a bucket o cash to have lots o money to donate. lol lol Off to dream land to dream about walkin'n that lil guy with a bucket o cash lol lol , have a great night...xoxoxo Stephie
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Funny I wake up this morn have a big glass of water and go to the computer AND what to my delight do I see coming through the slider is a rainbow on my keyboard....on to the cabnits....ok so lil man where is the bucket o cash? it was sooo pretty minus the bucket

RIP Joe T

This week my husband got word that a long time friend of his passed away. He has been sick for many years with cystic fibrosis and had a lung transplant about 5 years ago. Joe NEVER complained. He was a doll. Loved life and loved his nieces and nephew. Summers long ago we would walk Hampton Beach with "the crowd" of Michael's hs/college smart friends. A scientist an engineer, the money men bankers/accounting majors and Joe the do all for others guy. At one time he was a mechanic but his lung issue put an end to that. He would drive with his dad in the big box truck to keep him company on his delivery route all over Boston. He knew Boston like the back of his hand. We had good times those summer about 20 years ago. He loved my jello mold. I would make it for backward BBQs at their old place on the conor of St. Andrews and St. Edwards Rd. I hate jello but the mold thing just had to be bought and the fancy fruit made it look look nice. I think he was the only nice guy that would eat it. Joe lived a life of family and friend filled days. The disease he had is known to take lives rather young. To us he is a young 46. So many others do not live past 20 with that disease. So to Joe Tirrusa ....love to you up in Heaven, you have always been an Earth Angel now you are in Peace with our Maker. xoxoxo Love you friend Michaeles wife. he always called Michael Michaele'

The Stephanie Special

So Sol Bean named the wrap after me! I go in and ask for a wholewheat wrap with avocado, Havarti cheese and pesto pressed on the paninni press and yum yum I luv it!

The Climb

I do not like this singer but I love the words to this song. It applies to many things of my journey. I really see that it is not the end but the journey that matters. Live every moment, be in the moment. Laugh and love with all your heart, today is a gift not a right!

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing
Keep the faith, baby
It's all about, it's all about the climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith,