Reiki......deep meditaion and breathing has been wonderful

Tonight I am going to an info meeting about Reiki. I looked into it about 3 months ago and really liked the concept. At my program we do a wonderful deep breathing/mediation program. I find it to be so fulfilling and stress relieving. It takes your heart rate to a nice slow pace and gets you to a different place. The Reiki program at the hospital can be a free one if you get picked by the lottery. I am gonna enter and see how that goes. It is very costly if otherwise. I do know it is a treatment during chemo also that has positive effects on the patients. I have 2 cds from the program and do them atleast 4 times a week and have got Ry on board too. M listened once and feel asleep. The key is to get into a relaxed state but not SLEEP......I hope I can be picked for the lottery. My energy is through the roof with the peace it has given me. Deep breathing also helps the lung build capasity and the more H2o you take in the better u are at burning the calories also. So all together now.....deep breath in through the nose, see your chest rise and out through the mouth......deep and release all the air that your tummy is at your back and hold that tummy....in...in.....hold and breath......I hope the soothing Kenny G can take you to the clam and peacful places I have been......

HANCOCK

As in John.....yup John Hancock....I got it during the movie why that was his name. Ryan and I went this morning to see it with our free movie passes from Christmas. It was good. I did not think I would of liked it but it was FREE and ok to watch. There were some corny parts but for the most part not bad. We do not waste out money on movies, we rearly go unless we have passes so I am glad I did not pay for it. I think you can save the cash and see it on tv at home. I have always liked Will Smith and still do. Ryan loved it. We wnt to the Burlington Mall FC after to get some lunch. Then to babw while Ry stood outside to say hello to Jenni a mgr that I used to have at Northshore. Got some groceries and now time to make some dinner. When we got home Ry being the sweet kid he is said thanks for a great day...he is too much love that boy.... not much else to say...lol S is earning lots o cash at his summer painting job. Not much more for now...clouds are out and it seems gloomy.

soggy and wet ICK!

So Pammie forgot to take our picture this morn. Good thing b/c we looked like soaked in a pool dead rats. Lovley truck delivery morning started out good but did not stay that good. After the first trip of laughs and smiles, some jokes we make our way for the 2nd and 3rd trip and it is MASSIVE DOWNPOURin',,,,,oh my the skies opened up and bam,,,,water everywhere. We take the stuff in as fast as we can...eyes buring from the water, shrits, undies shorts and bras soaked to the bone...Our shirts were so heavy it was nuts. Litterly we rung out the shirts and hair. Called to get the delvy to an INDOOR door but NOOOOOOOO that door breaks to often...O OK....so a metal cart and lightining a great combo hey.....We got through it using rolls of paper towels to dry the floor boxes and ourselves. Good thing we both had other t's just by chance. Pam even had to buy some new pants b/c she was so soaked and could not possibly go on the floor looking like a drenched rodant....lol I really wish we got a pic. lol I think it was just to hectic to really think about it at that moment...but hey got some exercise and my perdonited had almost 10,000 steps on it and the day is not over. That is a really good thing. The sun is now shining and the clouds are away, if only it could of been like that at 6am this morn......Have fun w/ya Pam ; )

I really think I have to ask for these movies for Christmas this year.

I LOVE THE 80's Brat Pack movies. I used to be able to quote many of them. I HAVE to have the set. I think this will be my request for our sibling grab gift. Just me and a hot herb teas curled up on the sectional downstairs with a comfey comfortor, no bra..lol tmi and some warm fuzzy clothes. A day of watching the best movies from childhood......it can happen some day in Feb.....

Walks to the park

This came back to me b/c I was reading fellow bloggers post (Kristen) about her day with the kids at Sonny Myers Park. That was a park that was build brand new when Stephen was about 18 mnths. old. I remember Michaels Nana Martha saying I know the Myers brothers good boys they all are. I had no clue who she meant. So this one day I look at the sign like 3 days after it opened and it said Sonny Myers Park. Ok now I know why she said that when I stopped by her house before walking to the park. I remember the times like yesterday. I would leave my house on Cummings Ave and walk to the crosswalk on B'Way...Never J walk, always use the crosswalk no matter how far you have to go to get it...lol then make my way to East Mnt Ave and Payson St. I could go an easier way but it was just a nice thing to ring her bell and have her come down to see the "lil rascal" as she called him. She would take down a glass of luck warm water for me. She always said water that was too cold would give you the arthritis....We would talk for a while and she would say before the sun is high in the sky you should get to the park and back b/c mid day sun is no good for even the darkest of skin. She was a doll that Nana Martha. On some days I had more than just my own I would have my daycare kids too. We would pack a lunch to eat there and make our way to the childrens room in the libray on the way back. The fun and joy they had there. Once of the things was a chain type balance beam and Stephen was so strong even when he was small and would not want any help. The swirl slide was a scary one...lol I long for those days again to see the newness of things in their eyes. I love the "men" or should I say almost men that they have become but something about way back then that I can just bawl my eyes out knowing that they are no longer lil ones. When M and I took my neice and nephew there in the fall I had to go behind a tree to conpose myself b/c I was in a full fledge cry fest. I know M knew why I was bawling but also said we still get to do these things with the lil ones in the family. I think it is not exactly the same b/c of the past memories I got to make with my own. Oh I love more than anything in this world being a mother. I loved the days when they were lil and would stop time or turn it back if I could.

Cor Unum=One Heart

http://www.corunummealcenter.org/home.html

"Cor Unum is committed to the truth that no man, woman, or child should ever be hungry"

Perspective! that is what I can say about life after serving food at the hot meal center in Lawrence this afternoon. We live in a rich country America but there are still homeless and hungry all over. Though the government can send money to all the other countries like Middle East ect. With a happy heart I was glad to help. Lots of work but well worth it. So sad to see young kids make their way there for a hot meal ALONE! Yes I mean young kids. So very sad. Makes you see just how fortunate we are. This place is near the other soup kitchen that I shop and cook for the first week of the month. I must say the operation this place has going is superior to Bread and Roses. I am sure B and R feeds less people. Both places are run solely by private donations and volunteers. I am looking forward to going back next month. It was hard work well worth it. The smiles on the faces made it worth while. The simple things like a hot meal made them grateful. I tried my best to treat them all like they were at a restaurant and be an A+ waitress. I thanked them for coming and slipped all my guests with extra dessert...lol They could get seconds on the appetizer and main course but not dessert but I hooked them up.....SWEET! lol Hey they can't fire me I am a volunteer....LOL
I am blessed with many talents and thank God by putting those talents to work. The more you give the better you make yourself feel. A smile goes a long way....Blessings!

New songs

On the bottom of the playlist...tab to a bottom song and hear more that were added..

My Playlist.....represents ME!

As you can "hear" when you open my page I have some songs playing for your listening pleasure. Everyone has different likes when it comes to music. I love the songs I put on and each song represents a piece of me. My husband was listening the other day and could not figure out why one of the songs were there.I was like think! With a great big hug he said I am so sorry I can't pin point why you have it,or how it relates. OK my love, 18 years together and you don't get that song or what it might remotely mean? Now, I know inquiring minds want to know what song....I will keep that between us. lol
Not all the words apply but for the most part I would think he would "get it". I have him pondering and will not give him the answer to see if he could guess eventually.He listened 3 times and still feels it is off, in his mind, I guess gals are different from guys.lol I will let you know if he does get it with no help from me. He is close. Two of the songs also relate to my quest of a healthier life. I am down 25 as of last night at the program and continue to not want junk or food that I craved before this. It is not only a body/food thing it is a mind thing and this wellness program touches all aspects. I love the deep meditations and yogaesk aspects b/c I feel that makes all the difference to me. Enjoy the tunes...

BB 10 .....Yes it is back!

Yes! It is back.......love this show as you know....DVRer the entir season just in case I miss one.....Jane and I are so excited we were on the phone Sunday night goin on and on after the 1st episode aired....lookin like some interesting HG's tis season...Wow #10... and not one of them know eachother this time....alast, strangers....we can hope.....XOXOXOX Big Brother Fan!

YES! He's back!

Yahoo.......Ryan and I picked Stephen up from CHCI today at 400pm. It was so awesome to see him. We took one of his friends home and the hockey bag of another who went home sick on Tuesday, poor kid has had the flu since then. I swear Stephen and Christian grew the week they were away. Really! They had a blast and the dirty cloths are almost all cleaned and laundered b/c they smelt so bad I just HAD to do the wash the second we got in. Like in past years he enjoyed the food but was extremely famished and needed food. Michael wanted us to get something out but he was to exhausted. His six pack abs are like rock and he is so buff after the intensiveness of this week. He is always fit but he leaves there so on top. It is so nice to have him home our family dynamics are back to regular. He went to bed really early and I have a feeling he will be sleeping in tom. morn. Breakfast was at 630am every day this week and THEY HAVE TO EAT to sustain themselves through the day. I saw dinner when I went to pick him up and it looked really good. The campers from out of the country and other states stay, get a coach ride tonight and do a second week in Canada. Next year he may opt for that b/c he will be a counselor, we would have to drive him there. My husband is already looking into a road trip to The Falls......Canadian side he loves plannign things ahead of time...lol He had some really fun stories and one not so good one, an on ice coach and a player who was not paying attention collided and the coach was sent to the hospital with a broken nose, skull fracture and blood everywhere. Needless to say he was done for the week after that. The poor guy. They all volunteer there and the dude had to get hurt in the process. Stephen said it was an accident of course but if he had a cage on it could of been avoided. Only USA hockey leagues have mandatory rule of even coaches wearing cage masks...but not other countries. Since this was considered an International program they do not HAVE to apply that rule. S and his friend both said he should be on the ice with a helmet atleast. He also got 60 stitches on his face b/c the other players cage cut his face up. If it were cage to cage the out come could of been so much better. So sad that it happen. All in all he will be talking about this past week for a while. He so enjoys it. I could tell he is glad to be home and is such a good kid. I missed him like crazy, we all did. Ry has his buddy back. yeah Stephens home......

Eight years without a grill.........

Now we have one....yippie....
This looks just like the one we ordered from Sears. It was on back order b/c it was on sale for $100. less than it sells for. We had to wait and wait...BUT NOW WE HAVE IT! Last night was the first meal on the grill. Yum yum.....I put balsamic vinigar on asparagus with some Mrs. Dash seasons and we had grilled chicken with it. I watched Michael so I would know how to use it when he is not around or working late. I CAN GRILL! lol I made soy burgers tonight and they came out awesome. Yes we ate already...lol M is working late and S is at camp and Ry and I are heading out to swim at a friends house. They eat really early b/c the dad works the night shift and I did not have lunch. I also make roasted red/green pepers...They were so good. Nothing like a grilled pepper to put on the soy burger. Ry did not even know it was a soy one b/c the grill marks make it look authentic...lol His had cheese to also through him off...lol After he ate it I told him and he did not mind and also said it does not taste like his soy milk....Well no it won't ...lol differnt items. I am so full and content with having that and can't wait to get more veggies for grillin and some turkey cutletts ect.......When you don't have something for a long time and then get it it is such a novelty. I am so happy to have the grill b/c turnin on the oven stinks when it is summer. It even has the side things to boil corn on the cob and keep all the cookin on the deck...I LOVE GRILLIN~ Happy Grillin to you too....

Lax pics and some b-day pics

Birthday Pictures......

Another year ......

It is that day again in July when the "big one" Stephen goes to his week of Christian Hockey Camp International in Wenham MA.Close to home but so far from us..... He has been going since 4th grade. It does not get any easier for me as the years go by. I KNOW I KNOW.....get over it he is growing ect ect....but NO! Does not get any easier. I must say the first year I was on the 800 phone line everyday to get the recorded updates. Since then I do not do that more than 2x's for the week. He loves going there and gets so much out of it psychically and spiritually. We usually all drop him off but today Ryan is having a few friends over for his birthday and we are taking them to Monster Mini Golf and pizza. I so could tell how much Ry will miss his brother/friend. They really are good friends and that makes me happy.
At certain emotional times I can resort to "fixing" my emotion at that moment with food for comfort, I'm sure we have all been there from time to time. This afternoon I am making a conscious effort not to run to food. I took a healthy approach and took a long bath instead and choose to eat a few grapes and almonds in place of the yummy fattening 3 layer chocolate homemade butter cream cake I made for the boys. I will surly be sending pieces home to the dads of the boys. It is an on going battle. Unlike an alcoholic who does not need a drink to function a food addict, lets put it: needs food to sustain life, so it is hard that food needs to go into our bodies considering we can go astray and make the wrong choices. Do you follow? I know I write in circles sometimes. A person addicted to alcohol does not HAVE to be around it but food it is always there it is needed to live. I will stay on track despite the fact that I could so "fall off the wagon" right now with my emotions. Michael and I will be getting salad at the pizza place b/c I really do not want to eat something that I know could make me go over the edge. The big squeeze and hugs from Stephen helped too. He knows his mama loves and misses him so much. I know he misses us too. We look forward to Friday when we get to go to the closing ceremonies and see the scrimmage game. Miss you my baby......xoxoxoxo Mama loves you so much....

The first 20!

Down 20 lbs since my post April 28th....Been trying since that point and started the program I spoke about June 18th. It was surpose to be the 11th but they were on summer vacation. The program is most helpful and I am so glad to be apart of it. I am also glad that I started there with a loss. They take your weight at sign-up, that was back @ April 27 or so.....and to get weighed in and have lost since my counsiltation was a happy thing for me. They also gave positive feedback that I lost even before starting them. I am working hard and they only let you weigh in every 3 weeks b/c thye don't want to discourage you if you stay the same some weeks. They also do not focus on the number on the scale. They so want you to look at the big picture and the stamina you gain. Wednesedays class I did th eaweful butt blaster as I call it aka stair climber for 35 mins and climbed 28 flights without stopping. Now I could of never done that without gasping 20 lbs ago. Making great choices and sticking to seeing the big picture not just of loss but of new found energy! ; )

~Happy Birthday America....Happy 4th of July~

Proud to say I am an American......The best country! The word free may be in Freedom but it is not truly "free"/////We owe our freedom to the brave men and women past and presant to our nations freedom. The ones who defend our copuntry for feedom of speech and choice to live in this country,live as Americans are my heros. God Bless all of them and America......

cupcakes

Next week gonna try to recreate something like this....not exactly the same but close.....wish me luck....at least we know they will taste yummy...lets hope they look elegant too.....but with a fun twist...