June 11, 2008

I am counting the days. That day I will be enrolled in the NS Hospitals Heart and Wellness 12 week program.You go once a week and have nutrtion counseling, exercise program with health monitoring and group classes. It will be every Wednesday night from 4:30-7. I am a little put off by the time with Lax practice and golf team for the kids but I am making the commitment and will do something for me. Michael can do pick-ups maybe leave early from work, or get a ride for Ryan. I wanted the May class but it was booked so I will sit tight and wait. From now until then I am gonna make a concious effort to be better. I met with the nurse yesterday and she was a doll. I also met the Italian nutrionist, yeah she so got me.....I was so happy that she grew up with the Italian influece b/c she can get the "food" thing. I am sharing b/c I want to be held acountable to this. If it were something that I don't profess I can fall. Not a soul would know. I hate to fail so this may give me the ump I need to keep posting about and not slack off. So if you need me from 4-8 on Wednesday nights you'll know where I'll be. If you know me enough I get places 1/2 hour early b/c I am anal like that......Yesterday the secratary said your really early. I said with a laugh better than being late. lol She smiled. I met this 45 year old man Rick who was waiting that completed the program and is on maintenace and lost 39 lbs during his 12 weeks. Men always loose faster than women but he was a great help. He said when he went for his 1st visit a gal gave him some kind words and he was doing the same. He was so funny about how he had his "Last Supper". He said he had a free for all at the Continental Resturant and pigged out knowing that he was going to do this. He know looks back and says he has no need or desire to binge like that. Something clicked and got him on track. I have lost 80lbs once before back in 2002 but it slowly came back. Another attempt here we go.....liek the story of the tortous and the hare...slow and steady wins the race.........

JUST SAY NO!

Food can really have a hold on a person, well I mean me. I am sure others will atest to this. I was not forturnate enough to get "skinny" genes. Not ever knowing my father I do know that he was an average to slender man. I did get to see him once when I was 19 when I was at an all time low for my weight. I still seemed heavier than he was. UGH! He did like women with some meat on their bones..lol My mother was far from slender even when she was younger and I know his wife was a rather larger lady. Back to the point. I have my mothers genes in the psycial...nothing else (I pay my bills and don't steal and am not a basket case)another post all together.
I am trying sooo hard to make a pact with myself ONCE AGAIN to not let the food cravings control me. JUST SAY NO! I don;t want to be her (the mother) who had every possible problem under the sun. I want to live past 60 and not have 4 strokes, sleep apneia, diabetes, High BP, lungs like a smoke stack ( never did I ever try a cig in my life ewww, a wine problem...ect....I WILL NOT BE THAT....I am going to JUST SAY NO and make a change. It is not about a number to me it is about the health of it. At 37 I am healthy and don't have medical issues and DON'T WANT them to creep up on me. JUST SAY NO! I have to keep saying that..........I will not be in a funk and I will not look to food for comfort I will and am learing to find WHY my feeling are and not to mask them with FOOD> It will not be my drug.......JUST SAY NO!

April 26, 1992

A wonderful day for a wedding.....I am so happy to celebrate after all these years the love Michael and I have. I feel we are blessed to be eachothers soulmates, best friends, and lovers. I though I loved him so much on that day but as the years pass I fall more in love with him. XOXOXOXOXOXO love and kisses to a man I cherish...

SUNSHINE

The title says it all......SUNSHINE

natural vitamin D rules....

First game of the season....

This cold, damp, rainy, cloudy day was nasty. What made it even more nasty was being outside at a mucky field at the Topsfield Fair Grounds FREEEZZZING while Ryans Lax team played their first game of the season against Cape Ann (Gloucester). They had a great start with 5 goals in the first and second quarters. After that it was all down hill. The very large rain drops fell like ice cubes. I made my way to the truck. We parked in a great spot to have a good view of the game. At that point I was wishing we were inside a hockey rink...lol Yeah it is warmer and the wind does not hit you like a knife. Cape Ann dominated the rest of the game scoring 9 goals. I could tell Ry has really improved since last year and his breathing (seasonal astma) has not come into play so far. Thank God. Hope that stays at bay. This years team has a really great coach that is nothing like last years coach. Ry is very happy and pleased this time around. I had made veggie/long grain rice soup this morn for the crockpot and could not wait to have a bowl of the warmth. We are still cold to the bone. The Lax season is only 2mnths long compared to our 8.5 mnth hockey season so it is a piece of cake when you look at it. Last Wed was the hockey game that would decide if we were in the finals. We made it to the last round before the final game and lost by 1 goal. Funny how even the Peabdy parents (other team) were mad at the ref for calling a no goal on one of the goals we SCORED. They were like are you kidding me. We were up in arms. If it were a tie we would go into overtime with a shootout if no goal was made. That is an exciting way to decide who goes to the finals. Oh well it did not happen. Well you win some u loose some. This team took home the Gold in Lake Placid and we will always have those memories. We came in 3rd for the year in our division since loosing that last game. Saturday we had to miss the parent/players skate end of the year party. Stephen has been extreamly sick and was at the ER for 5 hours at the end of last week. He is doing better but still will not be in school tom. We want him to build up his resistence and stamina to feel well. He has slept 20 out of 24 hours for 3 days now. We had a scare that they tought it could be menigitus but once again Thank God it was not. He has an acute sinusitus infection thingy with the side effect of vertigo causing vomiting. He does look better and has no temp. My BIL the MD has been in contact with us everyday, twice a day and still wants us to go to the PCP tom. just to reck. and make sure the meds are working ect. It is better to be safe than sorry. No matter what age you still worry and they will always be your babies. So that is the update from The Casa de Raf.... can't say it's been stress free....gettin through it.....
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and now at 630pm the sun is shining bright...go figure....

I really tought the number would be higher...REALLY!

You Are 68% Phobic

You definitely have almost all the common phobias... and some not so common ones. Relax and live a little. Nothing is out to get you. At least, probably not!

How Phobic Are You?

So nice to see you old friend......

I may use SPF 55 to not get sun damage but I still love you. I love to see you and love that your warmth is shinin through my windows today. You may cause fine lines if not protected but I will always crave you. I wear my eye protection and sunscreen so BRING IT ON! Keep shining my old friend.

It feels like we live in London.....

The dull sky is really getting lame. It makes for a blah day. I am so looking forward to the house glowing with beautiful sunshine. The living room has a wonderful feel when the top of the tall windows get sun. I never have to put the lights on in the day here only when it is a really dark sky. S said that it is expected b/c of something he learnt this year in science, with the Global Warming crap that is going on. The seasons are shifting and are really not true to what they used to be. I can only say we so deserve a great summer weather wise and maybe get an Indian one too come the fall. Happy weekend and stay dry......

A holla to my Boy Boy......

This here is a pic of my boy boy JF.(one of the original water)....What a handsome guy he is. He and Michael just celebrated their 40th in '07. Last Thursday we got together and had dinner at the CCF....U all know that place...My favorite! Cheeesecake Factory. The "water" was together while the "dads" and the "kids" ate at the food court. LOL Very funny that they were there longer than we were at the CCF and had dessert. We had lots of laughs and our server was a blast. My two SILs were there also. We recalled past events and spoke of old times, always fun and smiles when we r w/ JF. He is one to remember dates like I remember people. I could not be that good with #'s. Boy Boy stops by BAB to say hello on his way to the FC when he is on the day shift. He puts a smile on my face b/c he is such a cutie. I can't say enough about this kind hearted person. He gets an A+ in my book......Luv ya Boy Boy...xoxooxxo UR Girl GIRL....lol lol HEHHEHEH

SLOW DOWN!

OH MY GOODNESS! Just witnessed outside our window a car flying on our street, mind you limit is 25mph...Like people drive that...NOT! So the car must of been looking down or something but the Fed Ex truck that was double parked in front of the house across the street was hit. We hear screatching and a bang...Thank goodness no injuries. The airbag deployed and we called 911 the police were near by and came pretty fast. Oh my heart. SLOW DOWN PEOPLE!