it has been a while ...a long while....

Is bloggin a thing of the past? It seems FB has become the "new" blog outlet? I guess I will still from time to time put updates! Hey bloggers if there are any out there....HI! : )

first official training walk 2010! Pink Angels

Yesterday was a 3.5 miler at Breakheart in Wakefld. I did that AND ran when the others were done an addtional 3.5 miles. The killer hills are just that KILLER!
Goin there today with Myles and Michael to walk. Hope Michael can handle the hills LMAO! We may tae turns holding Myles b/c his lil pup legs may not want to walk so far.
Met a nice amount of the dedicated angels there. It was bitter sweet seing Martha and angel of 5 years who just had a double masctmy. and shaved her head to not have the hairloss be so bad. She is in the pic the one with that shaved head. She really doesnt look all that bad, just differnt seeing her without her blond bob look. She is so positive and insprational to others. I pray that not just her but ALL cancers GO AWAY! We find a cure! I am truely blessed to be apart of such a wonderful diverse group of people who are so passionate about the FIGHT! I luv the positive and luving nature of the group, I think thats why I fit on so well. PINK ANGELS 2010! WE do it again and again! xoxoxoxoxo

Dinner with the GF!

SO my oldest sons GF is FINNNAAAALLLY here for dinner. YAY! I cooked Italian, of course! She is very sweet and social. I could not stand if she were a shy one LOL Shy and I do not mix HAHHAHA She is outgoing and does modeling so she has not choice but to be outgoin'. They are watching a movie now and I dare not walk down to the basement LOL LOL .....OR DO I! hahaha Ryan is at his friends house so he can't be the spy! LOL JK......

WE WANT SPRING WE WANT SPRING!

It is time for a new season don't u think? O hhhhh I sire do. ENOUGH with the winter alreasy>>>>WE NEED SPRING!

2010!

Let a new decade begin! Happy New Year to all xoxoxo
May you have lots of pleasant days with love and kindness coning your way! xoxoxo

Q n A

What do you do during the day?
-Lots and lots

Do you hate anyone right now?
-No it takes too much effort to HATE...I dislike one person from the past that smells like ass

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
-39

Do you like the color green?
-It's okay, now sage is better

Have you ever changed your clothes in a vehicle?
-Yeah

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
-Yes

Look outside, how's the weather?
-Cold

Last time you ate grilled cheese?
-cant recall

What school did you go to in 7th grade?
-St. Lazarus School

Do you hate when people put "I love you" on their profiles?
-Who cares

Were you smiling in the last picture taken of you?
-I was laughin

Do you think two people can last forever?
-yes if you are tru best friends/soul mates

Could you go a month without cursing?
-yes

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
-Yep or calculate

Do you eat ranch with your pizza?
-Ew ew ew ranch makes me want to die and no dont eat pizza either

Do you love anybody?
-Yes with all my being

What color are your eyes?
-Brown I'm his brown eyed girl

What did you fear as a child?
-stuff mostly the house catching on fire

Would you push anyone down a flight of stairs?
-Um no

Do you like dark or light jeans better?
-Dark

Peppermint or spearmint?
-Either

Is love really worth fighting for?
-Yes

Who is the first person you see in the morning on school days?
-Michael then Ryan then Stephen

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
-No

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
-yup

Are you a patient person?
-I have become one over time

Other than your name, what was the last name someone called you?
-mom

Have you ever had a boy best friend?
-Yes in like 8th grade

Are you wearing any clothes that don't belong to you?
-yup Ryans

Are you happy with the way life is going?
-Yes

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
-I could but not lookin all that great lol

Do you have a best friend?
-yes, real long time one...long time one...semi time one lol lol and many awesome really close friends

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
-male

What are you excited for?
-Spring to come LOL LOL LOL

What is your current annoyance?
-snow coming

Do you share a good relationship with your parents?
-mother no longer alive, father deadbeat so eh what do u think

What are you listening to?
-Christmas songs

Would you run down the street naked if it meant earning $15,000?
-nope

Do you miss your past?
-I like to live in the here and now but some things yes I miss a bit....kids being lil ones miss lots

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
-yes

Last words you said out loud?
-be right there

Who is your favorite family member?
-Nana T

Have you ever drove over a squirrel?
-No! a skunk

Have you ever cursed at your parents?
-back in the teen years

Ever intentionally made a sibling cry?
-Yup

Have you stolen candy from a kid?
-No

Have you ever wanted to be a doctor?
-No

Did you wear glasses?
-Yes

What's your shoe size?
-9 1/2 10 depends on the shoe

Do you have any pets?
-no

What's your dream date?
-Michael and I in Newport RI....staying over night

Are you allergic to grass?
-not really

Ever keyed someones car?
-......no.....

Do you eat tomatoes?
-yes

How old are you?
-38 u asked how old I am gonna be so take it from that # lol

Do you live with your parents?
-ah no not for many years

Can you see the future?
-huh!

What superpower do you wish you had?
-Teleportation

Whats on your mind?
-Dam snow

What was your favorite year of high school?
-12th grade

Can you juggle?
-Nope

Whats your favorite color to wear?
-pink

Do you have a brother?
-No well ok I have a half that has no clue his father fathered me about three months before he was born...yup a 1/2 brother 3 mnths younger than I am NICE real nice

Are you a rebel or rule follower?
-Rules rule

Do you cry often?
-no

Can you whistle?
-Yes badly

Ever egged someone's house?
-No just did some shave cream with 2 friends one halown.

What are your views on going to college?
-it is for some and not for others

Do you know any single parents?
-Yes

What vehicle do you drive?
-not an awd prius lol

What was the gas price last time you filled up?
-$2.53 a gal.

What is your job title?
-Master Bear Builder

Do you live in an apartment?
-no

Is your bed made right now?
-Of course would I not ever do that

Would you say you are independent?
-yup but no in a way I depend on Michael and am very fine with that

Do any of your friends annoy the crap out of you?
-eh no not really

What last made you cry?
-the news about a mom whos 4 year old would not see her for Christmas b/c she is serving over seas. I hate that

Who is the last person you saw crying?
-I dont know

Are you religious?
-some would say

Do you like what you see when you are naked?
-Ah hard question to answer, dropping 180 lbs I feel much better it was about the health not the vanity I say,

When you are home alone what do you do for entertainment?
-dance in the kitchen to songs and cook....not home alone much at all

making up a gingerbread house

Lookin forward to seeing the Pink Angels and making a gb house with Angie today. The smells will be so sweet.....

St. Judes Walk

Yesterday it was a great walk for the hospital that I first heard about when I was about 6 years old. I recall my Papa Steve telling me about the place and how he loved Danny Thomas the hospitals founder. It is funny how you recall lil bits of when you were lil. We walked and got to write who we were grateful for that has been involved with any kind of cancer and I write TJ. A lil boy who I met 9 years ago. He was on my bus and in a class I was an aide for. He is the ultimate fighter. This boy has had his highs and lows since being diagnosed 10 years ago. He is now 11. Yes since he was about 18 months old he has lived with his inoperable tumors. He gets frequent treatment in Boston and is a star on his hockey team despite his frequent bouts with fatigue. He luvs life, luvs his new puppy...his last dog got hit by a car and he was so sad about that. He just has this omph to live life to the fullest. Once about 4 years ago when he was not doing well I signed up to make a meal for the family who were finding it really hard goin back and forth to Boston and he said it was the best baked ziti and meatballs ever. It was great to be able to make him food and bring a bear for him. I so appreciate that his family is so grateful to the community for every lil thing they do. We just want to make it as easy as possible for them. So to TJ......your zest and fight are an inspration xoxoxo God Bless you TJ

11-22

11/22 the day that God sent you.......
today is the day you were born back in '67....your little soul came down from Heaven.
I am so greatful for your birth because 22 years later we would meet and have our lives entwine. Our luv would be so devine.
I am blessed every day with the way......the way you luv me, the way you luv others, the way you give of your all when you do things, the way you are so loyal, the way you make my world a better place with unconditional luv and grace.
Wishing you a Happy Birthday doesn't begin to say just how much I am greatful for this day!
Happy 42nd birthday to my one and only tru love.....I look at you and still see that young 22 year old that melted my heart the first time you touched my arm, and put on that Raftery charm. xoxoxoxo I luv you more today than yesterday but not as much as tommorow.

Happy Birthday Michael xoxoxoxo

Enjoyin the time at Sol Bean Cafe

Two days in a row I got to enjoy time at the BEAN....lol with two great gals. Luv that I have a place like this to go to...like my very own Healthy kind of Cheers lol where everybody knows your name. I love also that they know exactly how to make my acia drink....red crimson tea, acai berries, strawberries and bee pollen/ a 2oz shot of wheatgrass and a flax bar half then and half for the road. I have upped my wg shot from one oz to 2 and it does make a hugh differnce. It is not easy to get the 2 oz shot down but a wiggle and a deep breath makes it down the hatch! Luv that place.

A Rich Life

The tribute to a man Dennis Rich made my heart and many others melt the other night. I am so gald to have been able to see this. It was put together with much love and dedication to him. God Bless the Rich family and the loves of his life that will always hold him dear in their hearts.

The Snowman

I read this book many times to the kids when they were little I love it. So touching.

Paula, her sister, Sky:her daughter and neice came back...

Paula Cole was a BABW guest again this week. She is at her Massachusetts home for the rest of the year until next spring when her long awaited new album is released. She is a centered, calming person. Has the love and sparkle in her eye for her "Sky", daughter who is a smart lil one that has a personality as big as a bear hug. That girl seems to know what she wants and has tons of positive energy. At one point while waitin for the cousin Sarah to finish with her mom Paula and Sky went to "burn off some energy" as Paula called it. lol Sky pointed out that her grandmas name is Stephanie...she likes that name so she chose it for her very eclectic dressed bear. Her sister was an older version of her and you could so tell they are sisters. She said she was glad to see me and loves when I build bears for Sky. It was a very slow day at the Bear Barn and she got to stay and go about her day at the quiet of the NS Mall. Said they were going to catch a bite at Au Bon Pain, the only FC place that I now frequent b/c of the more natural healthy choices. Like the only place that has anything remotely non fast food type. She is far from a presumptuous star type, I swear I get more snobs that are nobodys there. She has this natural vibe and carin sparkle in her eye. I really like when they come in and have a bearific time.

Kitty again....but thats ok

2008 Kitty for Haloween at BABW........2009 Kitty for Haloween BABW! same ears and tail...so not the same clothes....lol

Let the sun shine bright

Oh so nice to see u Mr. Sun......I swear Mother Nature may be getting a swift kick in the ars...lol lol I wish I could do it..LOL no I would sit and reason with the old gal and be like come on....give us a break...LOL LOL I only wish,
I do have a new attitude towards the days that are gray or crappy in my mind. I may not be able to control the weather but I cna control how the weather affects me. In using that skill I act better and live better through it. I still have every right to HATE the weather when it is not up to my par...lol but I will indeed continue to be the one who CHOOSES to live my life to the fullest and not let it get to me. SO blah to you weather...and yay to me!

~food~

We need food like fuel to function. I have realized that I reestablished this house not just me. Here WE NOW NEVER eat out of boardem. Even though the boys were never heavey I so know at times they ate stuff just to eat something and not b/c they were hungry. I so see a change in Ryan th emost but also in Stephen too. He is a tall buff kid and does indeed need a lot of calories to sustain his height and muscle mass don't get me wrong but in the past months I have seen the both of them including Michael eat so much less. I guess when good food is there for the taking better choices are made. I just needed to put out there that the change was not only for mine but the entire houses. I feel wonderful that I could be the one to incorporate such a great thing for them. Eat to live don't live to eat!

TODAY Show

While getting dressed this morn I saw a segment on the TODAY Show how siblings, long lost reunited with eachother. Some did not even know of eachother. It makes me ponder while I go about my days of all these 38 years what MY Siblings are doing day to day. My boilogical DNA of the male side met with me for about 15 mins of my life formally and that went to crap fast since I was basiclly asked the question "what would it take (money, how much) to make you stay quiet so you don't "hurt" my kids" Well aint that special....I guess YOUR KIDS feelings were much more importnat than my feelings are and money may keep me shut. WELL I was never THAT person. It is funny when I talk to Michael about it then and now I saw in a funny ironic way ...SHOULD OF JUST TOOK A STACK O CASH and kicked it to em....Well like I said never was that person. Don;t think CASH will pay me off. I would rather be poor in a guttah than take mercy money to be paid off to MAKE IT GO AWAY! I MADE something of me money free of it being handed to me and I AM PROUD as all HELL of the person I AM TODAY! I do however think it to be wrong and a disadvantage that there are two humans out there that may/may not know of me and I of them. I know of them they exsist but know not much about them. Seeing the segmnt. on the show made emotions/feelings/questions pop up about these 2 said people. I live well and go about my days without knowing but it would be nice to know. It could/could not add a differnt dinamic to me. So life goes on with or wothout you....cleshe t osay the least.

wanna wear this dress again

I LOVE LOVE LOVED wearing this dress...luved how I felt and looked...Well Stephens Confirmation is coming in early Oct. and I want to wear this but seems not fall enough. I have another really nice dress that we got for the wedding b/c it was so reasonable. Michael LOVEd that one so I may wear that to the Confirmation. Also I am the Godmohter/Sponcer to a gal I babysat years back. Was honored that she thinks that highly of me to be her sponser and also thinks that my faith helps with making her decision. A dark brown with beads is th eother dress and calf lenght so I think it will be more fall like. I will also have a scarf/see through shall off white to wear since it is OCT. So the other thing is sandles, the shoes we got were so awesome and can I really pull of the dress sandl. in Oct. We will c...Stacy!! Clinton....help

Memory Walk

It was great to see the support out there today for this aweful disease. It was a walk in the rain but no worries a lil rain won't hurt anyone. Micheals Nana Martha had it and now Nana T has progressed with it and I hold this cause near and dear to my heart. I like the saying find the cause, find the cure. Really it is an obscure disease that attacks the brain in a way that it is like being in another time and place. I hope that the future holds answers and this is why we walk and raise money with awareness. New Hampshire was THE PLACE to be to really see and honor those who live with it and the families who have to see their loved ones suffer. Please keep in your hearts and prayers the loved ones...Luv u more than u will know my awesome Nana T.

I have a son with a license

YES .....Stephen got his MA LI.....Nuts to think my lil baby....the 6'2" tall lil baby has his legal document that states he can drive ALONE! OMG....the time just flies. I know he is smart one and is diligent when it comes to rules so I have no doubt in him on the road. I worry about the other nit wits out there who drive. So to my first born son...Godspeed and be safe. xoxoxxo