LOST KEYS

a......hhhhhh not anymore....well they were NEVER lost....Michael says to me this morn "where did u put my keys?" I looked and said WHERE DID I PUT UR KEYS? I don't touch your keys. The truck on is in the truck where it stays but his COLLECTION of a set is always attached to his laptop case on the outside. SO ooooooooooo the day goes by he looks in every drawer/cabinet/closest/laundry room/suit jacket...Well I say 4 mins into the search look in the pocket of your two coats...maybe they are there....Well NOOOOO they are not....ok so I take that at they are not there. Now the day goes by...and Ry our concerned son says what if they are in the wrong hands and they use them..LOL I said WELL they don't have the address on them now do they? AND good luck to the person who is going to even attempt to climb our front stairs with all the ice LOL we only use the garage in this weather. SOOOO one of the jackets is placed on the breakfast stool and I skim by it and HEAR KEYS>>>>yup I HEAR A SET OF KEYS>...Now he said I looked in the pocket...Well guess what u did not look deep enough...It seems that this coat has pockets as deep as a kangaroo pouch LMAO! yup KEYS FOUND>>>>>hour of looking in every spot of the house wasted....They were there the entire time!!!! or were they? Did a lil helper put them back>>>who knows?

I'm comin' out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EPpE_BrX0FM

One day ridin in the truck while Michael was drivin this song came on .....I was in my own space in my head and was at the start of my weight loss journey and started to think I WAANT THIS SONG TO PLAY WHEN I WALK OUT LOOKIN ALL FIT AND FORTY! It was back in winter of '08 and now winter of '11 and I AM FIT AND FORTY I had to play this and dance around my kitchen yesterday! I just feel so good! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL~!

A lil guy that makes my day!

This is th eface I get to see when I watch him. He is a doll. Austin, who is a very pleasant adorable lil guy makes my day two days a week. I am honored to be able to spend time with him, he is such a cutie boy. I get my "fill" of baby time with him and luv that. Seein that my "LIL GUYS" lol I mean BIG GUYS are older now I like the baby time. When was there ever a time I did not like baby time? NEVER! Luv the blessing of lil ones! Austin u make my day!

Almost at the end of the month!

Come on lets count down the days to the end of this month. This LOOOONNNNGGG snowy, cold winter month! Then bring on the warmth...yeah wishful thinkin "Sunshine Stephie"///I do try to be the best I can be and have a positive outlook....try I do! I am puttin the much expended effort into seein things in a positive light. If I didnt then boy oh boy would this be a gray season. Really I have to say I so would be in a hot, tropical place living if my luv and boys would be there with me. Since they enjoy this place we call home(MASSACHUSETTS)the land of the cold and snow I stay, I luv them that much! :D Would I leave in a heartbeat if they were next to my feet on the travel to a warm place to stay and live...HELLLL YA~! but for now until then...it is here we live. Even the "cat" Bailey wants out. I could tell. He so wishes he lived in Hawaii...he told me in a dream LMAO! Have a great day all...Keep positive and thinkin it WILL BE SPRING SOMEDAY ......when who the heck knows!

oh so this seems like a supplement to take!

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MY YOUNGEST!

I guess you can say you can not compare your children. They are all so different but the same in a few ways. I have 2 very unique relationships with both my sons and I cherish them of so much. Up until a year ago I really think I looked at Ry as "the baby", had to protect him and coddle him. I must say I have come to realize just how much strength he has on his own. I give him so much credit now and no longer as much as I used to make him seem to be needy. He and I have grown together the past few years and I love just how much we have in common on views of various things. Stephen and I are very alike and Ry and I are not and now I see just how that helps with our time together. He is very much like his dad as S is a lot like me in some aspects. I look at him and still have the need to make sure he is babied but I would be doing him a disservice if I continue to not let him grow and fly on his own. My friend Lydia told me that years ago...she has 4 sons and did soooo much for the first two that they were so dependent she did them an injustice and would make sure she remedied that for the last two. I recall saying oh Italians just have the NEED in bedded in them to do all they can for their kids but I took her advice so I wouldn't have incompetent adults that I was to blame for making them that way. I love our separate times together as well as our being all together. I wouldn't change a thing and feel blessings daily to be the mom of both of my sons! : )

Repost from last March.....insight on the now!

SO my oldest sons GF is FINNNAAAALLLY here for dinner. YAY! I cooked Italian, of course! She is very sweet and social. I could not stand if she were a shy one LOL Shy and I do not mix HAHHAHA She is outgoing and does modeling so she has not choice but to be outgoin'. They are watching a movie now and I dare not walk down to the basement LOL LOL .....OR DO I! hahaha Ryan is at his friends house so he can't be the spy! LOL JK......

So funny they have been together about a year now and I have a bit of feeling like I have a half daughter. Ashley and I text and talk somedays, we giggle about her BF lmao and his huge feet.....we had one indiscretion per say back in the spring and got over that worked through it b/c I DO NOT LIKE LYES ONE BIT!> Nipped that in the butt! Have gona to many places together, made memories and had some girl talk. I really like this girl tons and see the reason why S likes her. I know at this point he loves her. They are like two peas in a pod, they are tru goobers sometimes. She is so sweet when she "butters" me up by saying I don't look 40 and I'm cool...and I always look at her with that look and say YEAHHH BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER I HAVE THE MOM in me and I will get all up in your face MOM if I have to...LMAO! They have a joint ginue pig together named Pickles, Cuddles was the 1st one but passed a few days after they got him. They are so loving to this GP and it makes me laugh. I have come a long way to have Pic "sleep" over when it is Stephens turn to have him. She has him more often than not..I find that to be just FINE! So to go from yikes what to expect to now it being like second nature to have her apart of us is a good thing. Changes take place all the time. We just don't realize it until we look back on it!

4/8/08 to present what is that 2 years 9 mnths?

I THINK~ that is the time frame for that of my weight loss journeys start date....went from 340lbs wayyyy down to 159lbs....lost 181lbs and still counting? Well lets say toning everyday. People say stop losin those #'s u r fine....I am toning and gain a lil muscles weight there too. I am told I don't even look the # I am. I would love to say I lost an even 200lbs b/c I am so a NUMBER person...but I will not push it just for the sake of NUMBERS> My doc and nutritionist tell me I am A+ right now, I like that! :)
SO to end this post with a "If I can do it anyone can" like you hear on all the ads ect for weight loss products ect. Well let me just say it is a LIFETIME/LIFESTYLE CHANGE all the time. NOT A DIET an everyday effort for exercise AND eating to the healthiest of ability! I LIVE A NEW LIFE> I love being a vegetarian but I am in no way promoting that you or other HAVE to embrace that way of life. Please do it in steps if your going to make the change and effort to be embrace a healthier, happier way of you! :D I will never turn away from advise if I know it and am happy to help in anyway with your questions. Like on the Biggest Loser...."PAY IT FORWARD"/////I may not have been able to be on th eshow but I feel my change and the chage that the show promotes goes hand in hand. Have a wonderful day! XOXOXO

It has been a while.....

It's been a while and I lost BLOG UMPH! lol
For the most part FB has taken over! :P sorry Blog!
Still staying at my goal weight and luvin be healthy!
Hope for a quick winter and Spring/Summer to get her asap!
I am so excited that 4 =OH is coming and I can say I am at my goal weight, FORTY FIT AND FABULOUS! need to make me a T Shirt that says that LOL to wear to the gym and on the gym of the 4 day cruise my honey is taking me on for Christmas/Birthday gift! Luv him so much. It is so blissful to still be like a new luv 20+ years later with him. Now that says something! :D Have a great SUNSHINE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! XOXO Love Stephie!!!!!

28 mnths later

Here r the dates....4/30/08 start eating better and making a change.....9/30/08 tons of changes and a liquid diet of many weeks and a non meat eater! starting weight 340lbs...yup folks that is not a misprint!!!! weight loss of 180+lbs.....and still dropping for the most part.but am happy to stable at this weight and not drop more...a size 8 is fine with me...hey I even have some size 6 clothes...yup long way from a 26 plus size.The program director and nutritionist both said I do not look my weight of 155 I look about 130 or so, that is a good thing....I am very tone and they are so pleased that my skin is not an issue. Most skin can be with a huge weight loss. My psyc eval was that of another persons I was also told! YAY!!!!! I am overjoyed with them and myself, she said I give them too much credit b/c I always say how awesome that program is and she says it was what I did with what they gave me that counts! YAY ME YAY NSMC HEART AND WELLNESS! luv those peeps!!!!! xoxoxox Healthy is as healthy does!!!

wow it has been ages....

So here is a POST!!!! SUNSHINE DAY!!!! it is cloudy rainin out BUT always a SUNSHINE DAY in your heart!!!! xoxoxoxo <3

ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!!!

JUST ONE MORE DAY TO GO TILL BAILEY COMES TO HIS FOREVER HOME!!!!!!!!!!
yay Bailey yay!

Needed to share this.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch_popup?v=rmm-0-Rdxo8

it has been a while ...a long while....

Is bloggin a thing of the past? It seems FB has become the "new" blog outlet? I guess I will still from time to time put updates! Hey bloggers if there are any out there....HI! : )

first official training walk 2010! Pink Angels

Yesterday was a 3.5 miler at Breakheart in Wakefld. I did that AND ran when the others were done an addtional 3.5 miles. The killer hills are just that KILLER!
Goin there today with Myles and Michael to walk. Hope Michael can handle the hills LMAO! We may tae turns holding Myles b/c his lil pup legs may not want to walk so far.
Met a nice amount of the dedicated angels there. It was bitter sweet seing Martha and angel of 5 years who just had a double masctmy. and shaved her head to not have the hairloss be so bad. She is in the pic the one with that shaved head. She really doesnt look all that bad, just differnt seeing her without her blond bob look. She is so positive and insprational to others. I pray that not just her but ALL cancers GO AWAY! We find a cure! I am truely blessed to be apart of such a wonderful diverse group of people who are so passionate about the FIGHT! I luv the positive and luving nature of the group, I think thats why I fit on so well. PINK ANGELS 2010! WE do it again and again! xoxoxoxoxo

Dinner with the GF!

SO my oldest sons GF is FINNNAAAALLLY here for dinner. YAY! I cooked Italian, of course! She is very sweet and social. I could not stand if she were a shy one LOL Shy and I do not mix HAHHAHA She is outgoing and does modeling so she has not choice but to be outgoin'. They are watching a movie now and I dare not walk down to the basement LOL LOL .....OR DO I! hahaha Ryan is at his friends house so he can't be the spy! LOL JK......

WE WANT SPRING WE WANT SPRING!

It is time for a new season don't u think? O hhhhh I sire do. ENOUGH with the winter alreasy>>>>WE NEED SPRING!

2010!

Let a new decade begin! Happy New Year to all xoxoxo
May you have lots of pleasant days with love and kindness coning your way! xoxoxo

Q n A

What do you do during the day?
-Lots and lots

Do you hate anyone right now?
-No it takes too much effort to HATE...I dislike one person from the past that smells like ass

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
-39

Do you like the color green?
-It's okay, now sage is better

Have you ever changed your clothes in a vehicle?
-Yeah

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
-Yes

Look outside, how's the weather?
-Cold

Last time you ate grilled cheese?
-cant recall

What school did you go to in 7th grade?
-St. Lazarus School

Do you hate when people put "I love you" on their profiles?
-Who cares

Were you smiling in the last picture taken of you?
-I was laughin

Do you think two people can last forever?
-yes if you are tru best friends/soul mates

Could you go a month without cursing?
-yes

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
-Yep or calculate

Do you eat ranch with your pizza?
-Ew ew ew ranch makes me want to die and no dont eat pizza either

Do you love anybody?
-Yes with all my being

What color are your eyes?
-Brown I'm his brown eyed girl

What did you fear as a child?
-stuff mostly the house catching on fire

Would you push anyone down a flight of stairs?
-Um no

Do you like dark or light jeans better?
-Dark

Peppermint or spearmint?
-Either

Is love really worth fighting for?
-Yes

Who is the first person you see in the morning on school days?
-Michael then Ryan then Stephen

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
-No

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
-yup

Are you a patient person?
-I have become one over time

Other than your name, what was the last name someone called you?
-mom

Have you ever had a boy best friend?
-Yes in like 8th grade

Are you wearing any clothes that don't belong to you?
-yup Ryans

Are you happy with the way life is going?
-Yes

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
-I could but not lookin all that great lol

Do you have a best friend?
-yes, real long time one...long time one...semi time one lol lol and many awesome really close friends

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
-male

What are you excited for?
-Spring to come LOL LOL LOL

What is your current annoyance?
-snow coming

Do you share a good relationship with your parents?
-mother no longer alive, father deadbeat so eh what do u think

What are you listening to?
-Christmas songs

Would you run down the street naked if it meant earning $15,000?
-nope

Do you miss your past?
-I like to live in the here and now but some things yes I miss a bit....kids being lil ones miss lots

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
-yes

Last words you said out loud?
-be right there

Who is your favorite family member?
-Nana T

Have you ever drove over a squirrel?
-No! a skunk

Have you ever cursed at your parents?
-back in the teen years

Ever intentionally made a sibling cry?
-Yup

Have you stolen candy from a kid?
-No

Have you ever wanted to be a doctor?
-No

Did you wear glasses?
-Yes

What's your shoe size?
-9 1/2 10 depends on the shoe

Do you have any pets?
-no

What's your dream date?
-Michael and I in Newport RI....staying over night

Are you allergic to grass?
-not really

Ever keyed someones car?
-......no.....

Do you eat tomatoes?
-yes

How old are you?
-38 u asked how old I am gonna be so take it from that # lol

Do you live with your parents?
-ah no not for many years

Can you see the future?
-huh!

What superpower do you wish you had?
-Teleportation

Whats on your mind?
-Dam snow

What was your favorite year of high school?
-12th grade

Can you juggle?
-Nope

Whats your favorite color to wear?
-pink

Do you have a brother?
-No well ok I have a half that has no clue his father fathered me about three months before he was born...yup a 1/2 brother 3 mnths younger than I am NICE real nice

Are you a rebel or rule follower?
-Rules rule

Do you cry often?
-no

Can you whistle?
-Yes badly

Ever egged someone's house?
-No just did some shave cream with 2 friends one halown.

What are your views on going to college?
-it is for some and not for others

Do you know any single parents?
-Yes

What vehicle do you drive?
-not an awd prius lol

What was the gas price last time you filled up?
-$2.53 a gal.

What is your job title?
-Master Bear Builder

Do you live in an apartment?
-no

Is your bed made right now?
-Of course would I not ever do that

Would you say you are independent?
-yup but no in a way I depend on Michael and am very fine with that

Do any of your friends annoy the crap out of you?
-eh no not really

What last made you cry?
-the news about a mom whos 4 year old would not see her for Christmas b/c she is serving over seas. I hate that

Who is the last person you saw crying?
-I dont know

Are you religious?
-some would say

Do you like what you see when you are naked?
-Ah hard question to answer, dropping 180 lbs I feel much better it was about the health not the vanity I say,

When you are home alone what do you do for entertainment?
-dance in the kitchen to songs and cook....not home alone much at all

making up a gingerbread house

Lookin forward to seeing the Pink Angels and making a gb house with Angie today. The smells will be so sweet.....