lots of movement with laughs too

got to have some really great convo with Miss Ham! Love talking to that lady who like myself LOVES LIFE and LAUGHS more than anything. That's why there is such a connection. Her thinking is to be and stay in the company of positive people and you can feed off the good. Hams energy and spunk is amazing. My face muscles get a workout when we are together! :D gotta luv the Hamalama! xoxoxoxox As for the Big B man...lol Brianna/Cabana Boy! he pointed out this way tooooo funny book!...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SwwtO5viUDE We had many laughs the other night! Btween Pat the Bunny and our laughs....what a time! "follow the leader leader leader"

walk and dance

great Tuesday night walk with Angels! :D now to dance around the kitchen to all the new songs Michael downloaded to the Ipod! get him movin and grovin to to get the burn on!

creating addicts everyday!

Not only have I made a monster out of my co-worker Bridget, oh and JW too but a complete stranger at Sundays NSMC walk! Was using the bathrooms and was so impressed at how clean they were (I was the 1st one there to use them lol) and told the lady cleaning them they were immaculate, we got to talking and were sharing cleaning obsessions and told her about the 70% I A addiction I have LMAO! Well she was like I can't wait to get myself a spray bottle and use that too! :D yet another convert! hahahha......I swear I am ADDICTED! Bridget fed into my habit and got me very large bottles ...<3 u B! and I got her a pretty spray bottle for hers! I really do clean all surfaces with a diluted mixture and find it is the BEST! I need cases of it! CASES I TELL YOU!

~sticking to what I know~

I just tried to be a BARISTA in the kitchen...lol WELL it did not go well. Early this morn before work I brewed some chi herb tea stuff.....made it get chilly while at work then just now wanted to FROTHY it and make a kind of frozen drink! WELL didn't happen as well as I envisioned lol I will stick to building bears and taking care of children LOL LOL .....the counter had to be wiped down with 70% isopropyl alcohol mind you....Had to clean my hands after b/c they were a mess also and really all I got out of the concoction was some flavored chunks of ice. Oh well I guess I won't be the creator of herbal slush drinks after all! :D :/ IT IS WHAT IT IS! :P

4 weeks and counting!!!!!!!!!

Less than four weeks till the Boston 3 Day SGK for the cure walk. So pumped! gonna wear my orange safety shirt, gotta be viable/kind of like the orange cones! maybe Michael and Stephen can wear this outfit. that would be cute! So excited....to be able to see every walker...I will so miss walking this year in Boston but look very forward to TAMPA! luv the heat and loving to see a new city! SO please if you want to support an awesome cause go to ......http://www.the3day.org/site/TR/2011/TampaBayEvent2011?px=2999947&pg=personal&fr_id=1630 and DONATE! EVERY LIL BIT HELPS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Like his mama

So proud of Stephen tonight, we did not know that at the scholarship dinner this eve he would have to go up and say a few things. So without anything written he did sooo very well. Out of the 3 students he went last and started by saying words of congrats to the 2 other recipients. What made us most proud after thank yous and telling of his future plans he made sure to mention how he supports the SGK 3 Day and how is honored to be apart of the FIGHT for a Cure! Oh that boy! Like his mama he has passion for the cause AND can talk to anyone! YAY STEPHEN YAY! lol lol

EVERYONE DESERVES A LIFETIME!

http://www.the3day.org/site/TR/2011/TampaBayEvent2011?px=2999947&pg=personal&fr_id=1630
The Pink Angels to Fight Breast Cancer don't JUST walk in Boston for the 3 Day! NO NO, you can't keep us in just one place....LOL LOL We got a HUGE Tampa FL team this year and other PA's in town across America! Please PLEASE!!!!! Really a GREAT BIG PLEASE! click on the link DONATE TO END THIS>...IN our lifetime we NEED to find a cure! your daughters, friends, wives, husbands, sons, aunts...EVERYONE needs to know breast cancer will not take another life! I hold this near and dear and WILL not stop FIGHTING until I can not fight any more....I will ALWAYS be apart of FINDING THE CURE...Because "everyone deserves and lifetime"

who does the casting for these commercials????? NUTELLA!

Say the Nutella commercial this morn while getting ready.....WHAT>???WHo did the casting for that commercial? OK I will hear from people who will say don't stereotype: I am really just being a bit funny here with the notion that when I grew up ONLY the Italian kids even knew what Nutella was! The staple; Italian type peanut butter equivalent! SO why is the mom blond? the kids blue eyes and blond? WHAT! Where are the olive oil skin kids with dark hair and eyes...the mom with her Italian looking persona? I need the number of the casting director...REDO! there are plenty of families I could see cast on that commercial! Then it would be a true replication of the product! Now now don't all get mad taht I am saying this I am really kidding but there is a lil bit of truth to it too!!!!

my babies daddy!!!!

Growing up not having a father..not the best thing ever...but having a very loving papa made it a lil bit easier, no I stand corrected a lot easier. Losing Papa Steve was a hard blow at a young age ta boot. I also had the pleasure to have an outstanding uncle who I love and cherish to this day. With that said regardless when you father is not apart of your upbringing there is a puzzle piece missing and it is not an easy thing to get over.Fathers Day being a reminder of that. When all your friends are saying how much they love and cherish their dad. You deal with it but in the back of your mind you always think of the what if's and other scenarios that might have occurred. Knowing that feeling of absents I NEVER EVER wanted my children to feel that. I wanted them to have what I didn't and I am pleased and honored to say they got that and more. Blessed with a man who not only has shown nothing but unconditional love, respect, and pride towards me; he has shown and acted as the best dad around for our sons. He quote unquote would shovel shit if he had to to support us...he would take a bullet for us and would never ever leave or have us in any danger. He has always stated that he could never understand how a man could put a blind eye to his flesh and blood. He says how can men not support their kids? I as a mother do not understand it since the love for your children is so very special and deep, it is a selfless kind of action that is automatic, well atleast for most I would hope. I always joke with him and call him my daddy too. LOL I love most sayin "you're my babies daddy"....and we just laugh! :D As for his own dad, he had a role model of epic proportions. It's a no wonder why he is such a great dad. I since day one have felt like a "daughter" to my FIL....The dance that took place at our wedding was so special, I felt such a deep love and connection it really made me feel loved. I know where he gets his loving, caring and daddy like qualities and feel equally blessed to have had him get such an awesome upbringing. As for the DNA half of me that was and still not involved or apart of my life...Still to this day I can say I was jipped in a way ...no correction HE was jipped BIG TIME.....he made the choice to NOT be in MY life. He is the one missing out BIG! I could be the wallow in my sorrow type or I can put on my big girl pants and hold my head up high and not let that define me. AND I DO! Head held high! Knowing that HE MISSED OUT more that I ever did. Another Fathers Day approaches and I have no need to be sad because there are many more dads in my life that I can look to and say HAPPY FATHERS DAY to ....the most important being the one who has been there since minute one, who through the years has shown and gone above and beyond the tile of father...he is a true dad! Smart, Best Bud, Strong in spirt, Gentle, Caring Supportive,Wise,In Charge and most of all loving in an unconditional way......Thank You to my Best Friend and Love. I would not want to have gone through the past 20 years with anyone but you by my side. oxoxoxo

Quoted from Dr. Sears......."HEALTHY EATS MY FRIENDS"

"Pesco-vegetarians eat fish, dairy products, and eggs along with plant foods. (We believe this is the healthiest diet for most people)."
I guess I now have to be a label of Pesco-Vegetarian.....I eat tuna fish, white albacore with a lil evoo and vinegar. I try to have 75% Vegan but can not be a true vegan because I really really love cheese. I get much protein from cheese and eggs. I no longer drink cow milk unless last resort. I enjoy a good almond,soy or rice milk. Mostly the almond one. I do not push being a non meat eater in others meat eating faces, I just no longer like or want to consume meat. It has been since the end of April 08. As the years have passed I still cook the stuff for the family but do not at all like the smell. I do it b/c of my Italian Mama love..hahahha I am still told my meatballs are AWESOME! Funny how I tried to make FAKERS and they sooo knew....that was trashed. I do not like those food processed into "food" for example...meatless chicken nuggets or fake ribs...a soy product with bbq sauce to cover the meatlessness of the item. As for the Tofukey aat holiday time or soy franks for summer...so not touching that either...the more pure and untouched the food the better...it just seems like if you were to put in your car a bunch of sludge and gunk, like your car the body will function in tip top condition when feed and fueled with healthy stuff...so off to cut up the greens and chop chop the veggies, add some beans and omegas and what a meal, I mean fueled source for me! Healthy Eats!

June should be warm? or no????

Today the outside temp read 56*...really? June 13th....I think that's just not SUNSHINE enough for me. It did however "warm" up at around 1:30 went for a walk at the Lake with Bailey and the temp said 67* .....THEN like 71* in the sun that peeked through about 10 mins and then not so much.....LOL On another note, my A button keeps on stickin' There are many words that need the vowel A and I have to go bck & look or press really hard for the a to type. UGH an Aless board. hahahahha see without me pressin hard on the A tht would look like hhhhhhhhhh makes no scenes.

BOOM BOOM CRASH!!! AND A BIG BROTHER IS A COMIN SOON TOO!

the drive home was a crazy one...the skies blackened and opened up like a rolling in of zoombies lol lol the rain fast and hard...the noise so not like a regular storm...crazy flashes and a very crazed driver...ME! So we did make it home with Ryan making sure I knew that we were GROUNDED...the wheels ground us...Ya but it is still freaky as ll freak show....As I get in I look at my e-mails after chatin with Michael that he was close by..yay...he also in the mess....the e-mail reminds me that on July 7th the new season of BOG BROTHER starts...YAHHHHOOOOO.......been watching them since day 1 just like Real World. I get people who say you watch reality shows? really! YUP I SURE DO.....beats scripted shows that are ACTED out...lol lol I so know I will catch some nay sayers and peeps who will say oh okkkkk like reality is not scripted but ya know what you watch your shows and I watch mine. I do not like TV shows...I like reality shows...I have 2 majors ones Biggest Loser being my #1 and Big Brother up there like #2.....So as July heads our way the DVR will be set to record the season....I may watch the day it is on or look at the show that is DVR'ed ,.....I am not a slave to BB but to BL I basically am because I workout the entire 2 hours BL is on....as for BB...I hope in the 13th season they bring out the WOW factor with TWISTS! ...I so think I could be a houseguest esply NOW that I can so do the crazy psychical stunts they have to do from time to time...and on the psychological end of it..eh I see myself taking it! :P Have a great storm free eve people and SUNSHINE HUGS from Stephie xoxoxoxoxo

B's are lookin great!

4-0 third period...YAH BABY!!!! Hey lets hope that Horton is well. My my that was low and cheep of Vancouver. SO WIN IT FOR THE HORTON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOOOOOOOOO B's!

things I may not have done at 340lbs

I have to say way back when I TRIED to kayak and it did not go well. I think I did not know how to manage my weight and stay centered. Maybe I just had to much to center. Well tonight thanks to Susan,,,mind you back in 2001 Sue was the motivator to push me walking when I dropped 80lbs but did not keep it off, she called out of the blue with the crazy question "what are you doin,? U wanna go kyackin right now????" I said what now?????Q!!!!!! ok what do I wear...LOL AND I so did not mean it like a social event that I had to DRESS UP! I meant do I find clothes that would be water proof ect...so she said flip flops, bug spray and something you don't care to maybe get a lil dirty. DIRTY! huh!!!! LOL LOL I realized life os to shot to worry if I get a lil dirty! Nature has dirt...I have grown to love the outdoors and nature so dirty comes with the territory. As we load th eback of her 4x4 (mind u they would never fit in the hybrid lol nor would the hybrid haul such Lbs. LOL LOL) we got a lil dirt on us and a great upper workout b/c they are not light items....Our upper body workout continued with gliding and rowing against the currant, Why make it easy and ride the currant when you can push through it.!!!! SO off we went in Middleton, but felt like Maine....It was quiet, beautiful and so refreshing. I felt alive and well to be out ther enjoying Gods great creation. WOW you could even see the bottom of the Ipswich River..it was way cleaner than I would imagine. The best part is we got to catch up with each others goings on and enjoy some rays of sunshine that was still pretty bright. I am no longer a kayak virgin...hahahha I may even ride the rapids like Michael did at the KNOW FEAR place in Norhtern Maine White Water Rafting. Yup the really fast in the blowup thingy event. I opted out those times he went b/c of lack of interest and out of comfort zone type feelings. This eve will be in my memory and I want to send out a great BIG thank you to Sue for the offer and please ask again..I LOVED IT! My new THING>..lol love the upper body workout!

Pomp and Circumstance

que the music....ba ba ba ba ba ba hum hum hum hum....ok u get it lol lol
So happy, proud, bitter sweet with emotions from tonights NSTHS graduation. Funny how the class Valedictorian said it..."this is an end to the beginning of of future".....So true! We are so proud Stephen 5 years ago made the choice to attend NST with the hopes of getting in. Yes it is a school that you have to test into and have the grades and reason to go there. One of the guest speakers stated that in Massachusetts there are over 1500 students on waiting lists to attend Voc schools. He excelled immensely there and we are so happy he took this route instead of a conventional HS. Don't get me wrong our town HS is a wonderful one and we initially made the choice to move to this town for the school system and small town feel. Also we did miss seeing the kids that he started with in Kindergarten way back when graduate also. We also feel that the past 4 years at NST we have formed a new family. We also get to stay apart of the NST family with Ryan. SO happy he has taken the NST road following in his brothers footsteps but making his very own unique path. SO grateful that not only does he have a HS diploma but also a Journeymans Cert also. Not many HS grads can come out with the ability to say they can be an electrician day one out of HS> We are happy he wants to study the engineering aspect of the electrical field as well. So he takes away NST the blue collar end of the field to apply it to the white collar design of it and that there people you could not get at a town school. We couldn't be more proud and still after all the chairs are put away and caps and gowns returned I still think he is my baby! my lil baby born on Jan 30th 1993.....it is like maybe 1996 right now in my mind lol lol I still have a lil 3 year old right???????

Go B's!!!!!!!!!

COME ON BRUINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

More than just an award!!!!

The milestone of the awards night:You hear other students names and feel that is wonderful for them but when you hear your own childs you can't help but tear up. He got 3 scholarships in all great grand total for his first year at Wentworth....about half of the years tuition bah bah bah bah $15,500......next year he is guaranteed 10K if the GPA stays up there and he stays at WIT! But more than just an award came when we were taking pics and gathering around after the ceremony when Ms. Johnson comes up to me and says are you Stephen and Ryan's mother? Then with a great big smile and an extended hand she says "I have never met such polite, sweet, respectable boys as your two boys are" As the tears well up she then says "they both are great people and you should be so proud of that"....."it reflects the upbringing" ....Well more than any award that melted my heart to know that they are thought of in such a nice way by a faculty member. A mamas heart melted. It was also so touching to see the Vice Principal who has been out for a while after a stroke and coma there for the students. We had to go to his office one time int he 4 years at NSTHS (lil went to get an ice cream cone during study incident) and he said when he doesn't know a student that is a good thing b/c he is really only in charge of discipline,,,,,so to not know Stephen until 4th qurt. of junior year was a really good thing. Funny that at Masco Jr. High Mr. Harringtons brother was also the VP of discipline and nope didn't know that Mr. H too well either. Once again a really good thing I would say. So for tomorrow with the Senior Cruise on Boston Harbor, Fridays Grad walk and Sats. BBQ...then our Family Dinner in Boston to honor Stephen we got a few busy days ahead. I hope the weather tomorrow will be good for the Spirit of Boston trip! Go Senior...~CLASS OF 2011~

MY official 3 Day Page

http://www.the3day.org/site/TR/2011/TampaBayEvent2011?px=2999947&pg=personal&fr_id=1630

Also NECA the link I posted before this post is another unique way to raise funds and get a CARWASH for you donation.....either way a donation can be made....please go directly to my 3 day link to see Y WE WALK....TO FIND A CURE IN OUR LIFETIME!

NECA

NECA

BM's lol lol

Lookin forward to seein this cute flick with my snowshoeing pals LOL Atleast we don't have to put on layers for this outing tonight! I will give a review of it later!

when a friend hurts you hurt too....

I do believe that the sisterhood of friendship runs deep and when a friend is hurting and you can't take away the pain you can only help or be there to try to give your words it hurts you deep down too. I try my best to be there and be as best I can for others b/c I know that <3's and love come back to you when you open up yours. SO to all my FRIENDS I am here for you, know that! xoxoxoxo

Mothers Day....a few days away!

Mothers Day.....a time to remember the WOMEN in your life that made a difference, gave of themselves to you and also may not have been your direct mother but had that motherly roll also. Nana T of course comes to the front of that line with all the years she gave to so many:My mother in law who treats me like a daughter from day one:My Aunt Val who would take me on over nights to give me a taste of the burbs bein the city gal that I was:women that I have encountered during my life, friends mom/other women who lead by example: and my own mother, who was who she was.....Her passing away on Mothers Day made a statement, I swear it so did! I am thankful and blessed to have MANY women past and present that I would like to send out THANKS AND LOVE! I give it my ALL and have always wanted to be the best I could be when it came to being the mother and a mother figure to others. I love that my sons see me and Mothers Day as being a day to remember what and why I do for them. Ryan said today "ma if I could I would buy you a house in Florida so you would be able to not be in winter, b/c we all know how much you hate winter" I looked at him with two things goin through my head, one that is sooooo sweet that he would think of me and my feelings of not having to be cold and go to a place that I would not have to have snow, how nice he is and two...does he want to get rid of me LOL LOL JK JK ....SO tellin him those things he said no no no u don't get what I meant...I love you so much that I want to get you something that awesome to make you happy. I told that adorable kid of mine...NO ITEM/OBJECT can make me as happy as I am having him, his brother and father in my life.....I will shovel feet of snow to be able to have time and live with them here in the place we call Massachusetts despite how much I can not stand the winter and snow. The love he shows from our example is GIFT enough. To all of you I wish you the LOVE of a women who is in your life or was in your life that has eched in your hearts a forever love xoxooxxo

Tuesday, November 17, 2009
A Rich Life

The tribute to a man Dennis Rich made my heart and many others melt the other night. I am so gald to have been able to see this. It was put together with much love and dedication to him. God Bless the Rich family and the loves of his life that will always hold him dear in their hearts.

Posted by Stephie Says..... at 5:35 PM


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Stephie Says..... said...
May 3rd 2011...wore my Hungry for Life shirt to Costco and a lady said to me I knew Dennis...I hugged her...xoxoxo A great life lived by a great man Dennis Rich xoxo #6

our soon to be grad!

LOL no pictures please1
hahahha
30 days away the BIG walk to get the diploma day!
My emotions are of many.....Like I always say ......time flies/don't blink these kids just grow up so fast. I am happy to have such good sons and proud to be their mama. I have given my ALL and will continue that no matter what age they are. The love of being a parent is priceless and no words can really say just how awesome it is to have children, I am blessed and thankful like you don;t know to have these kids and to be a mama to them. Love to all those who read and blessings of a happy life xoxoxo Sunshine Stephie.....Stephie Says....Smile :D

Breast Cancer Walk Bake Sale!

Thanks to Pammie who does THE BEST flyers here is the final of what I am going to put with the wonderful yummy treats! It is so pretty..Thanks Pam! xoxoxo

LOST KEYS

a......hhhhhh not anymore....well they were NEVER lost....Michael says to me this morn "where did u put my keys?" I looked and said WHERE DID I PUT UR KEYS? I don't touch your keys. The truck on is in the truck where it stays but his COLLECTION of a set is always attached to his laptop case on the outside. SO ooooooooooo the day goes by he looks in every drawer/cabinet/closest/laundry room/suit jacket...Well I say 4 mins into the search look in the pocket of your two coats...maybe they are there....Well NOOOOO they are not....ok so I take that at they are not there. Now the day goes by...and Ry our concerned son says what if they are in the wrong hands and they use them..LOL I said WELL they don't have the address on them now do they? AND good luck to the person who is going to even attempt to climb our front stairs with all the ice LOL we only use the garage in this weather. SOOOO one of the jackets is placed on the breakfast stool and I skim by it and HEAR KEYS>>>>yup I HEAR A SET OF KEYS>...Now he said I looked in the pocket...Well guess what u did not look deep enough...It seems that this coat has pockets as deep as a kangaroo pouch LMAO! yup KEYS FOUND>>>>>hour of looking in every spot of the house wasted....They were there the entire time!!!! or were they? Did a lil helper put them back>>>who knows?

I'm comin' out

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EPpE_BrX0FM

One day ridin in the truck while Michael was drivin this song came on .....I was in my own space in my head and was at the start of my weight loss journey and started to think I WAANT THIS SONG TO PLAY WHEN I WALK OUT LOOKIN ALL FIT AND FORTY! It was back in winter of '08 and now winter of '11 and I AM FIT AND FORTY I had to play this and dance around my kitchen yesterday! I just feel so good! LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL~!

A lil guy that makes my day!

This is th eface I get to see when I watch him. He is a doll. Austin, who is a very pleasant adorable lil guy makes my day two days a week. I am honored to be able to spend time with him, he is such a cutie boy. I get my "fill" of baby time with him and luv that. Seein that my "LIL GUYS" lol I mean BIG GUYS are older now I like the baby time. When was there ever a time I did not like baby time? NEVER! Luv the blessing of lil ones! Austin u make my day!

Almost at the end of the month!

Come on lets count down the days to the end of this month. This LOOOONNNNGGG snowy, cold winter month! Then bring on the warmth...yeah wishful thinkin "Sunshine Stephie"///I do try to be the best I can be and have a positive outlook....try I do! I am puttin the much expended effort into seein things in a positive light. If I didnt then boy oh boy would this be a gray season. Really I have to say I so would be in a hot, tropical place living if my luv and boys would be there with me. Since they enjoy this place we call home(MASSACHUSETTS)the land of the cold and snow I stay, I luv them that much! :D Would I leave in a heartbeat if they were next to my feet on the travel to a warm place to stay and live...HELLLL YA~! but for now until then...it is here we live. Even the "cat" Bailey wants out. I could tell. He so wishes he lived in Hawaii...he told me in a dream LMAO! Have a great day all...Keep positive and thinkin it WILL BE SPRING SOMEDAY ......when who the heck knows!

oh so this seems like a supplement to take!

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MY YOUNGEST!

I guess you can say you can not compare your children. They are all so different but the same in a few ways. I have 2 very unique relationships with both my sons and I cherish them of so much. Up until a year ago I really think I looked at Ry as "the baby", had to protect him and coddle him. I must say I have come to realize just how much strength he has on his own. I give him so much credit now and no longer as much as I used to make him seem to be needy. He and I have grown together the past few years and I love just how much we have in common on views of various things. Stephen and I are very alike and Ry and I are not and now I see just how that helps with our time together. He is very much like his dad as S is a lot like me in some aspects. I look at him and still have the need to make sure he is babied but I would be doing him a disservice if I continue to not let him grow and fly on his own. My friend Lydia told me that years ago...she has 4 sons and did soooo much for the first two that they were so dependent she did them an injustice and would make sure she remedied that for the last two. I recall saying oh Italians just have the NEED in bedded in them to do all they can for their kids but I took her advice so I wouldn't have incompetent adults that I was to blame for making them that way. I love our separate times together as well as our being all together. I wouldn't change a thing and feel blessings daily to be the mom of both of my sons! : )

Repost from last March.....insight on the now!

SO my oldest sons GF is FINNNAAAALLLY here for dinner. YAY! I cooked Italian, of course! She is very sweet and social. I could not stand if she were a shy one LOL Shy and I do not mix HAHHAHA She is outgoing and does modeling so she has not choice but to be outgoin'. They are watching a movie now and I dare not walk down to the basement LOL LOL .....OR DO I! hahaha Ryan is at his friends house so he can't be the spy! LOL JK......

So funny they have been together about a year now and I have a bit of feeling like I have a half daughter. Ashley and I text and talk somedays, we giggle about her BF lmao and his huge feet.....we had one indiscretion per say back in the spring and got over that worked through it b/c I DO NOT LIKE LYES ONE BIT!> Nipped that in the butt! Have gona to many places together, made memories and had some girl talk. I really like this girl tons and see the reason why S likes her. I know at this point he loves her. They are like two peas in a pod, they are tru goobers sometimes. She is so sweet when she "butters" me up by saying I don't look 40 and I'm cool...and I always look at her with that look and say YEAHHH BUT ALWAYS REMEMBER I HAVE THE MOM in me and I will get all up in your face MOM if I have to...LMAO! They have a joint ginue pig together named Pickles, Cuddles was the 1st one but passed a few days after they got him. They are so loving to this GP and it makes me laugh. I have come a long way to have Pic "sleep" over when it is Stephens turn to have him. She has him more often than not..I find that to be just FINE! So to go from yikes what to expect to now it being like second nature to have her apart of us is a good thing. Changes take place all the time. We just don't realize it until we look back on it!

4/8/08 to present what is that 2 years 9 mnths?

I THINK~ that is the time frame for that of my weight loss journeys start date....went from 340lbs wayyyy down to 159lbs....lost 181lbs and still counting? Well lets say toning everyday. People say stop losin those #'s u r fine....I am toning and gain a lil muscles weight there too. I am told I don't even look the # I am. I would love to say I lost an even 200lbs b/c I am so a NUMBER person...but I will not push it just for the sake of NUMBERS> My doc and nutritionist tell me I am A+ right now, I like that! :)
SO to end this post with a "If I can do it anyone can" like you hear on all the ads ect for weight loss products ect. Well let me just say it is a LIFETIME/LIFESTYLE CHANGE all the time. NOT A DIET an everyday effort for exercise AND eating to the healthiest of ability! I LIVE A NEW LIFE> I love being a vegetarian but I am in no way promoting that you or other HAVE to embrace that way of life. Please do it in steps if your going to make the change and effort to be embrace a healthier, happier way of you! :D I will never turn away from advise if I know it and am happy to help in anyway with your questions. Like on the Biggest Loser...."PAY IT FORWARD"/////I may not have been able to be on th eshow but I feel my change and the chage that the show promotes goes hand in hand. Have a wonderful day! XOXOXO

It has been a while.....

It's been a while and I lost BLOG UMPH! lol
For the most part FB has taken over! :P sorry Blog!
Still staying at my goal weight and luvin be healthy!
Hope for a quick winter and Spring/Summer to get her asap!
I am so excited that 4 =OH is coming and I can say I am at my goal weight, FORTY FIT AND FABULOUS! need to make me a T Shirt that says that LOL to wear to the gym and on the gym of the 4 day cruise my honey is taking me on for Christmas/Birthday gift! Luv him so much. It is so blissful to still be like a new luv 20+ years later with him. Now that says something! :D Have a great SUNSHINE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!! XOXO Love Stephie!!!!!

28 mnths later

Here r the dates....4/30/08 start eating better and making a change.....9/30/08 tons of changes and a liquid diet of many weeks and a non meat eater! starting weight 340lbs...yup folks that is not a misprint!!!! weight loss of 180+lbs.....and still dropping for the most part.but am happy to stable at this weight and not drop more...a size 8 is fine with me...hey I even have some size 6 clothes...yup long way from a 26 plus size.The program director and nutritionist both said I do not look my weight of 155 I look about 130 or so, that is a good thing....I am very tone and they are so pleased that my skin is not an issue. Most skin can be with a huge weight loss. My psyc eval was that of another persons I was also told! YAY!!!!! I am overjoyed with them and myself, she said I give them too much credit b/c I always say how awesome that program is and she says it was what I did with what they gave me that counts! YAY ME YAY NSMC HEART AND WELLNESS! luv those peeps!!!!! xoxoxox Healthy is as healthy does!!!

wow it has been ages....

So here is a POST!!!! SUNSHINE DAY!!!! it is cloudy rainin out BUT always a SUNSHINE DAY in your heart!!!! xoxoxoxo <3

ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!!!

JUST ONE MORE DAY TO GO TILL BAILEY COMES TO HIS FOREVER HOME!!!!!!!!!!
yay Bailey yay!

Needed to share this.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch_popup?v=rmm-0-Rdxo8

it has been a while ...a long while....

Is bloggin a thing of the past? It seems FB has become the "new" blog outlet? I guess I will still from time to time put updates! Hey bloggers if there are any out there....HI! : )

first official training walk 2010! Pink Angels

Yesterday was a 3.5 miler at Breakheart in Wakefld. I did that AND ran when the others were done an addtional 3.5 miles. The killer hills are just that KILLER!
Goin there today with Myles and Michael to walk. Hope Michael can handle the hills LMAO! We may tae turns holding Myles b/c his lil pup legs may not want to walk so far.
Met a nice amount of the dedicated angels there. It was bitter sweet seing Martha and angel of 5 years who just had a double masctmy. and shaved her head to not have the hairloss be so bad. She is in the pic the one with that shaved head. She really doesnt look all that bad, just differnt seeing her without her blond bob look. She is so positive and insprational to others. I pray that not just her but ALL cancers GO AWAY! We find a cure! I am truely blessed to be apart of such a wonderful diverse group of people who are so passionate about the FIGHT! I luv the positive and luving nature of the group, I think thats why I fit on so well. PINK ANGELS 2010! WE do it again and again! xoxoxoxoxo

Dinner with the GF!

SO my oldest sons GF is FINNNAAAALLLY here for dinner. YAY! I cooked Italian, of course! She is very sweet and social. I could not stand if she were a shy one LOL Shy and I do not mix HAHHAHA She is outgoing and does modeling so she has not choice but to be outgoin'. They are watching a movie now and I dare not walk down to the basement LOL LOL .....OR DO I! hahaha Ryan is at his friends house so he can't be the spy! LOL JK......

WE WANT SPRING WE WANT SPRING!

It is time for a new season don't u think? O hhhhh I sire do. ENOUGH with the winter alreasy>>>>WE NEED SPRING!

2010!

Let a new decade begin! Happy New Year to all xoxoxo
May you have lots of pleasant days with love and kindness coning your way! xoxoxo

Q n A

What do you do during the day?
-Lots and lots

Do you hate anyone right now?
-No it takes too much effort to HATE...I dislike one person from the past that smells like ass

How old will you be turning on your next birthday?
-39

Do you like the color green?
-It's okay, now sage is better

Have you ever changed your clothes in a vehicle?
-Yeah

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot?
-Yes

Look outside, how's the weather?
-Cold

Last time you ate grilled cheese?
-cant recall

What school did you go to in 7th grade?
-St. Lazarus School

Do you hate when people put "I love you" on their profiles?
-Who cares

Were you smiling in the last picture taken of you?
-I was laughin

Do you think two people can last forever?
-yes if you are tru best friends/soul mates

Could you go a month without cursing?
-yes

Think a lot before you fall asleep?
-Yep or calculate

Do you eat ranch with your pizza?
-Ew ew ew ranch makes me want to die and no dont eat pizza either

Do you love anybody?
-Yes with all my being

What color are your eyes?
-Brown I'm his brown eyed girl

What did you fear as a child?
-stuff mostly the house catching on fire

Would you push anyone down a flight of stairs?
-Um no

Do you like dark or light jeans better?
-Dark

Peppermint or spearmint?
-Either

Is love really worth fighting for?
-Yes

Who is the first person you see in the morning on school days?
-Michael then Ryan then Stephen

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
-No

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
-yup

Are you a patient person?
-I have become one over time

Other than your name, what was the last name someone called you?
-mom

Have you ever had a boy best friend?
-Yes in like 8th grade

Are you wearing any clothes that don't belong to you?
-yup Ryans

Are you happy with the way life is going?
-Yes

Could you go out in public looking like you do now?
-I could but not lookin all that great lol

Do you have a best friend?
-yes, real long time one...long time one...semi time one lol lol and many awesome really close friends

Was the first person you talked to today male or female?
-male

What are you excited for?
-Spring to come LOL LOL LOL

What is your current annoyance?
-snow coming

Do you share a good relationship with your parents?
-mother no longer alive, father deadbeat so eh what do u think

What are you listening to?
-Christmas songs

Would you run down the street naked if it meant earning $15,000?
-nope

Do you miss your past?
-I like to live in the here and now but some things yes I miss a bit....kids being lil ones miss lots

Has anyone said they love you in the last week?
-yes

Last words you said out loud?
-be right there

Who is your favorite family member?
-Nana T

Have you ever drove over a squirrel?
-No! a skunk

Have you ever cursed at your parents?
-back in the teen years

Ever intentionally made a sibling cry?
-Yup

Have you stolen candy from a kid?
-No

Have you ever wanted to be a doctor?
-No

Did you wear glasses?
-Yes

What's your shoe size?
-9 1/2 10 depends on the shoe

Do you have any pets?
-no

What's your dream date?
-Michael and I in Newport RI....staying over night

Are you allergic to grass?
-not really

Ever keyed someones car?
-......no.....

Do you eat tomatoes?
-yes

How old are you?
-38 u asked how old I am gonna be so take it from that # lol

Do you live with your parents?
-ah no not for many years

Can you see the future?
-huh!

What superpower do you wish you had?
-Teleportation

Whats on your mind?
-Dam snow

What was your favorite year of high school?
-12th grade

Can you juggle?
-Nope

Whats your favorite color to wear?
-pink

Do you have a brother?
-No well ok I have a half that has no clue his father fathered me about three months before he was born...yup a 1/2 brother 3 mnths younger than I am NICE real nice

Are you a rebel or rule follower?
-Rules rule

Do you cry often?
-no

Can you whistle?
-Yes badly

Ever egged someone's house?
-No just did some shave cream with 2 friends one halown.

What are your views on going to college?
-it is for some and not for others

Do you know any single parents?
-Yes

What vehicle do you drive?
-not an awd prius lol

What was the gas price last time you filled up?
-$2.53 a gal.

What is your job title?
-Master Bear Builder

Do you live in an apartment?
-no

Is your bed made right now?
-Of course would I not ever do that

Would you say you are independent?
-yup but no in a way I depend on Michael and am very fine with that

Do any of your friends annoy the crap out of you?
-eh no not really

What last made you cry?
-the news about a mom whos 4 year old would not see her for Christmas b/c she is serving over seas. I hate that

Who is the last person you saw crying?
-I dont know

Are you religious?
-some would say

Do you like what you see when you are naked?
-Ah hard question to answer, dropping 180 lbs I feel much better it was about the health not the vanity I say,

When you are home alone what do you do for entertainment?
-dance in the kitchen to songs and cook....not home alone much at all

making up a gingerbread house

Lookin forward to seeing the Pink Angels and making a gb house with Angie today. The smells will be so sweet.....

St. Judes Walk

Yesterday it was a great walk for the hospital that I first heard about when I was about 6 years old. I recall my Papa Steve telling me about the place and how he loved Danny Thomas the hospitals founder. It is funny how you recall lil bits of when you were lil. We walked and got to write who we were grateful for that has been involved with any kind of cancer and I write TJ. A lil boy who I met 9 years ago. He was on my bus and in a class I was an aide for. He is the ultimate fighter. This boy has had his highs and lows since being diagnosed 10 years ago. He is now 11. Yes since he was about 18 months old he has lived with his inoperable tumors. He gets frequent treatment in Boston and is a star on his hockey team despite his frequent bouts with fatigue. He luvs life, luvs his new puppy...his last dog got hit by a car and he was so sad about that. He just has this omph to live life to the fullest. Once about 4 years ago when he was not doing well I signed up to make a meal for the family who were finding it really hard goin back and forth to Boston and he said it was the best baked ziti and meatballs ever. It was great to be able to make him food and bring a bear for him. I so appreciate that his family is so grateful to the community for every lil thing they do. We just want to make it as easy as possible for them. So to TJ......your zest and fight are an inspration xoxoxo God Bless you TJ

11-22

11/22 the day that God sent you.......
today is the day you were born back in '67....your little soul came down from Heaven.
I am so greatful for your birth because 22 years later we would meet and have our lives entwine. Our luv would be so devine.
I am blessed every day with the way......the way you luv me, the way you luv others, the way you give of your all when you do things, the way you are so loyal, the way you make my world a better place with unconditional luv and grace.
Wishing you a Happy Birthday doesn't begin to say just how much I am greatful for this day!
Happy 42nd birthday to my one and only tru love.....I look at you and still see that young 22 year old that melted my heart the first time you touched my arm, and put on that Raftery charm. xoxoxoxo I luv you more today than yesterday but not as much as tommorow.

Happy Birthday Michael xoxoxoxo

Enjoyin the time at Sol Bean Cafe

Two days in a row I got to enjoy time at the BEAN....lol with two great gals. Luv that I have a place like this to go to...like my very own Healthy kind of Cheers lol where everybody knows your name. I love also that they know exactly how to make my acia drink....red crimson tea, acai berries, strawberries and bee pollen/ a 2oz shot of wheatgrass and a flax bar half then and half for the road. I have upped my wg shot from one oz to 2 and it does make a hugh differnce. It is not easy to get the 2 oz shot down but a wiggle and a deep breath makes it down the hatch! Luv that place.

A Rich Life

The tribute to a man Dennis Rich made my heart and many others melt the other night. I am so gald to have been able to see this. It was put together with much love and dedication to him. God Bless the Rich family and the loves of his life that will always hold him dear in their hearts.

The Snowman

I read this book many times to the kids when they were little I love it. So touching.

Paula, her sister, Sky:her daughter and neice came back...

Paula Cole was a BABW guest again this week. She is at her Massachusetts home for the rest of the year until next spring when her long awaited new album is released. She is a centered, calming person. Has the love and sparkle in her eye for her "Sky", daughter who is a smart lil one that has a personality as big as a bear hug. That girl seems to know what she wants and has tons of positive energy. At one point while waitin for the cousin Sarah to finish with her mom Paula and Sky went to "burn off some energy" as Paula called it. lol Sky pointed out that her grandmas name is Stephanie...she likes that name so she chose it for her very eclectic dressed bear. Her sister was an older version of her and you could so tell they are sisters. She said she was glad to see me and loves when I build bears for Sky. It was a very slow day at the Bear Barn and she got to stay and go about her day at the quiet of the NS Mall. Said they were going to catch a bite at Au Bon Pain, the only FC place that I now frequent b/c of the more natural healthy choices. Like the only place that has anything remotely non fast food type. She is far from a presumptuous star type, I swear I get more snobs that are nobodys there. She has this natural vibe and carin sparkle in her eye. I really like when they come in and have a bearific time.

Kitty again....but thats ok

2008 Kitty for Haloween at BABW........2009 Kitty for Haloween BABW! same ears and tail...so not the same clothes....lol

Let the sun shine bright

Oh so nice to see u Mr. Sun......I swear Mother Nature may be getting a swift kick in the ars...lol lol I wish I could do it..LOL no I would sit and reason with the old gal and be like come on....give us a break...LOL LOL I only wish,
I do have a new attitude towards the days that are gray or crappy in my mind. I may not be able to control the weather but I cna control how the weather affects me. In using that skill I act better and live better through it. I still have every right to HATE the weather when it is not up to my par...lol but I will indeed continue to be the one who CHOOSES to live my life to the fullest and not let it get to me. SO blah to you weather...and yay to me!

~food~

We need food like fuel to function. I have realized that I reestablished this house not just me. Here WE NOW NEVER eat out of boardem. Even though the boys were never heavey I so know at times they ate stuff just to eat something and not b/c they were hungry. I so see a change in Ryan th emost but also in Stephen too. He is a tall buff kid and does indeed need a lot of calories to sustain his height and muscle mass don't get me wrong but in the past months I have seen the both of them including Michael eat so much less. I guess when good food is there for the taking better choices are made. I just needed to put out there that the change was not only for mine but the entire houses. I feel wonderful that I could be the one to incorporate such a great thing for them. Eat to live don't live to eat!

TODAY Show

While getting dressed this morn I saw a segment on the TODAY Show how siblings, long lost reunited with eachother. Some did not even know of eachother. It makes me ponder while I go about my days of all these 38 years what MY Siblings are doing day to day. My boilogical DNA of the male side met with me for about 15 mins of my life formally and that went to crap fast since I was basiclly asked the question "what would it take (money, how much) to make you stay quiet so you don't "hurt" my kids" Well aint that special....I guess YOUR KIDS feelings were much more importnat than my feelings are and money may keep me shut. WELL I was never THAT person. It is funny when I talk to Michael about it then and now I saw in a funny ironic way ...SHOULD OF JUST TOOK A STACK O CASH and kicked it to em....Well like I said never was that person. Don;t think CASH will pay me off. I would rather be poor in a guttah than take mercy money to be paid off to MAKE IT GO AWAY! I MADE something of me money free of it being handed to me and I AM PROUD as all HELL of the person I AM TODAY! I do however think it to be wrong and a disadvantage that there are two humans out there that may/may not know of me and I of them. I know of them they exsist but know not much about them. Seeing the segmnt. on the show made emotions/feelings/questions pop up about these 2 said people. I live well and go about my days without knowing but it would be nice to know. It could/could not add a differnt dinamic to me. So life goes on with or wothout you....cleshe t osay the least.

wanna wear this dress again

I LOVE LOVE LOVED wearing this dress...luved how I felt and looked...Well Stephens Confirmation is coming in early Oct. and I want to wear this but seems not fall enough. I have another really nice dress that we got for the wedding b/c it was so reasonable. Michael LOVEd that one so I may wear that to the Confirmation. Also I am the Godmohter/Sponcer to a gal I babysat years back. Was honored that she thinks that highly of me to be her sponser and also thinks that my faith helps with making her decision. A dark brown with beads is th eother dress and calf lenght so I think it will be more fall like. I will also have a scarf/see through shall off white to wear since it is OCT. So the other thing is sandles, the shoes we got were so awesome and can I really pull of the dress sandl. in Oct. We will c...Stacy!! Clinton....help

Memory Walk

It was great to see the support out there today for this aweful disease. It was a walk in the rain but no worries a lil rain won't hurt anyone. Micheals Nana Martha had it and now Nana T has progressed with it and I hold this cause near and dear to my heart. I like the saying find the cause, find the cure. Really it is an obscure disease that attacks the brain in a way that it is like being in another time and place. I hope that the future holds answers and this is why we walk and raise money with awareness. New Hampshire was THE PLACE to be to really see and honor those who live with it and the families who have to see their loved ones suffer. Please keep in your hearts and prayers the loved ones...Luv u more than u will know my awesome Nana T.

I have a son with a license

YES .....Stephen got his MA LI.....Nuts to think my lil baby....the 6'2" tall lil baby has his legal document that states he can drive ALONE! OMG....the time just flies. I know he is smart one and is diligent when it comes to rules so I have no doubt in him on the road. I worry about the other nit wits out there who drive. So to my first born son...Godspeed and be safe. xoxoxxo

ZUMBA

Lookin forward to ZUMBA tonight. They say this awesome workout burns up to 600cals an hour...thats a burn...luv to dance and I can't sit still so I am sure I am gonna like this. We will see.....

Hockey starts TODAY!

Hockey time again...get ut the jacket b/c I'm goin to a rink

I'm dreaming of another get a way with you.....

So our NYC/LI trip was awesome back in Aug. and we so keep saying can;t wait to go away with each other again. We have the perfect opportunity, NY again...not the city...Buffalo....I will be walking the Obesity Awareness Walk in October in NY and we are making a weekend alone of it. Michael will also be walking. There is a Boston one but that same weekend I have the Leannes Dream Walk and will be walking that one with MIL in memory of Leanne for her charity. I HAVE to walk the Obesity one to be apart and raise awareness of better health through eating better and exercising the body, mind and spirit. I started my journey to better health on April 29, 08 and will always continue to stay on track and make the best health choices I can for better health. I am passionate about this and will drive 3 hours to participate in something I care deeply about. I did this for health reasons and not vanity and want it known that others can get on a more healthy track for living and moving to the level of movement that a person is at at the weight they are at. Little by little more movement comes with less weight to carry around. I am down 175 lbs and may loose 10 more. My programs nutritionist, doctor and myself are working on seeing how my body adjusts to the weight it is now at...To them I AM AT GOAL! I remember when I had sooo much to loose and now it is like I am THERE> It is what I do with it that matters. I am toning and that may lead to more lbs of muscle mass and I am fine with that, it is not about the number on the scale but about how healthy I feel and the ability to move and be active. If my last ten comes off great. If they never come off so be it b/c I know that my body has never seen what it is at now in at least 27 years. So back to our get away. So lookin forward to another fun filled time with just me and my luv. I swear it feels like we are newlyweds still. To be luved is devine. He stood by me through thick and thin...literaly. lol and I feel great to have that special bond with my best friend/lover/husband who I can share these times with and grow old together as we watch our offspring go into pre adulthood. It is sooo nice having US time. xoxoxoxo

Day by Day....

Ok so who ever invented these things are great, luv that I can write every activity to know what is up for that day BUT ....big BUT comin' EVERYDAY is filled and now it looks messey to me LOL LOL Not just messey but really BUSY...so here goes the start of yet another school year. Activities, work, events ect...busy busy bee...I do luv those summer days when the kids are around...I do .......why would'nt I...have awesome kids and luv being with them when we have time off together b/c I am not saying that summer had nothin goin on ...it sure did. BUT my my my the next 4 months are booked solid!

take 7 and a half mins of your day to hear this awesome mans story! PLEASE! you will see what a wonderful man he is! He is my hero

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=g4ZyBzdTi3Q

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x3WukRQ45aY&feature=related watch this one to truly be touched at the end of our walk, Peter has the brim hat on
A WORLD WITHOUT BREAST CANCER

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lP-HU4ACHvI&feature=related fun was had by all

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oc7Ctkasx6k&feature=related

Failure to plan is planning to fail...wise words of the head nurse of the Heart & Wellness Program that also went through the program 6 years ago. She said she could not be a hypocrite being a cardio nurse and telling people to loose weight when she herself had to loose weight. That moto is how I live many aspects of my life.

Water Country...had some fun!

Luv this place......
We have not missed a year since we started dating in 1990. We went to out first official alone date there. I was happy to go on all the slides and fit more than ampally. Luved being with the nephews b/c it is like having lil ones again. Uncle Michael is so fun throwing them over and over just like when our guys were that age. Then Auntie is known to make them swim like dolphines and spin them around until we fall in the water and splash. That places does not seem as big at is was. It used to be a chore to walk from one end of the park to the next but NOT THIS TIME! My walkin legs took me back and forth many times without fail and I am still so excited to feel like I FIT! I took a double tak eof myself when I went in the restroom passing the mirror. I was like wow thats IS me. You still see yourself as you once were and it does take a bit of time to adjust and really believe what others see. It is still a work in progress. The journey continues...it goes on and on and never ends...

music and the bike

Yesterday at the gym after walking with Paula I did 5 miles on the bike! Before I never had th enotion that music makes u "kick it up" but hell yeah it does! I went the 5 miles in about 3 mins less than I do without the music. Every time the refrain came on and it was a kicker of a song I blasted. At Heart and Wellness they always wanted us to do "bump ups" to trick the body. Well bump ups were all over that yesterday. Down 1.5 lbs from the other day. I am being naughty and weighin in everyday since the 3 day. I was good an dlistened to H & W and only would weigh in once every other week. Well I have broken that rule..GASP! Stephie a rule breaker LOL
I was up a lb but I am sure b/c of the gosh aweful periods that I still have to have UGH, why can't we turn off a switch when we are done with the need of that? So I did not get frustrated I know weight goes up and down with weather and fluid. But is was really nice to see the 1.5 lbs loss. I vow to stop going on the scale when we leave for The Hamptons on Thurday morn. Unless I pack the scale...LOL LOL ....That would be funny. So the reason for the post!!!! I did see the kick up of music while pushin the legs to the limit yesterday...I did weights after and a long stretch at the gym ..picked Stephen up from work then while watching Big Brother and txting about it while watching I could not sit still on the sofa so I was doing ab work while it was on......It is good in a way to not sit still RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT IS!